She stopped suddenly, and looked as if her own words had frightened her.
"Is Uncle George dead?" I asked. My aunt turned red and pale, and
stammered.
I did not wait to hear what she said. I brushed past her, down the
stairs. My heart was bursting--my flesh felt cold. I ran breathlessly
and recklessly into the room where my father and mother had received me.
They were both sitting there still. I ran up to them, wringing my hands,
and crying out in a passion of tears:
"Is Uncle George dead?"
My mother gave a scream that terrified me into instant silence and
stillness. My father looked at her for a moment, rang the bell that
summoned the maid, then seized me roughly by the arm and dragged me out
of the room.
He took me down into the study, seated himself in his accustomed chair,
and put me before him between his knees. His lips were awfully white,
and I felt his two hands, as they grasped my shoulders, shaking
violently.
"You are never to mention the name of Uncle George again," he said, in
a quick, angry, trembling whisper. "Never to me, never to your
mother, never to your aunt, never to anybody in this world!
Never--never--never!"
The repetition of the word terrified me even more than the suppressed
vehemence with which he spoke. He saw that I was frightened, and
softened his manner a little before he went on.
"You will never see Uncle George again," he said. "Your mother and I
love you dearly; but if you forget what I have told you, you will be
sent away from home. Never speak that name again--mind, never! Now kiss
me, and go away."
How his lips trembled--and oh, how cold they felt on mine!
I shrunk out of the room the moment he had kissed me, and went and hid
myself in the garden.
"Uncle George is gone. I am never to see him any more; I am never to
speak of him again"--those were the words I repeated to myself, with
indescribable terror and confusion, the moment I was alone. There was
something unspeakably horrible to my young mind in this mystery which
I was commanded always to respect, and which, so far as I then knew,
I could never hope to see revealed. My father, my mother, my aunt, all
appeared to be separated from me now by some impassable barrier. Home
seemed home no longer with Caroline dead, Uncle George gone, and a
forbidden subject of talk perpetually and mysteriously interposing
between my parents and me.
Though I never infringed the command my father had given me in his study
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