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know."
"No, you know nothing, you know nothing at all about anything. What
_did_ you think?"
"I thought you hated me."
"Hated you?"
"Yes. Hated me like poison."
He put his arms about her, gathering her to him! He drew her head down
over his heart. "I hate you like this--and this--and this," he said,
kissing in turn her forehead, her eyelids and her mouth. He held her
at arm's length and gazed at her as if he wondered whether they were
the same woman, the Flossie he had once known, and this Flossie that
he had kissed. Then he led her to the sofa, and drew her down by his
side, and held her hands to keep her there. And yet he felt that it
was he who was being led; he who was being drawn, he who was being
held--over the brink of the immeasurable, inexpiable folly. In all
this his genius remained alone and apart, unmoved by anything he did
or said, as if it knew that through it all the golden chain still
held.
Her mouth quivered. "If you didn't hate me, why were you so rude to
me, then?" was the first thing she said.
"Because I loved you when I didn't want to love you, and it was more
than I could stand. And because--because I didn't know it. But _you_
knew it," he said almost savagely. It seemed to him that his tongue
refused the guidance of his brain.
"I'm sure I didn't know anything of the sort." Her mouth quivered
again; but this time it was with a smile.
"Why not? Because I didn't say so in a lot of stupid words? You _are_
literal. But surely you understood? Not just at first, of course; I
didn't care a bit at first; I didn't care till long after."
"Long after what?" Flossie was thinking of Miss Poppy Grace on the
balcony next door.
"Never mind what."
Flossie knew all about Miss Poppy Grace, and she didn't mind at all.
"Would I be here now if I didn't love you?" He still had to persuade
himself that this was love. It seemed incredible.
"Rubbish--you know you only came to look at those silly old books,"
said Flossie, nodding contemptuously towards the bookcase.
"Did you imagine I was in love with them? And think of all the things
we've done together. Didn't you know? Didn't you feel it coming on?"
"I know you've been orf'ly good--orf'ly. But as for anything else, I'm
sure I _never_ thought of it."
"Then think of it now. Or--does that mean that you don't care for me?"
There was an awful pause. Then Flossie said very indistinctly, so
indistinctly that he had to lean his face to h
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