-could ever
think of YOU--
RIDGEON [stopping her with a nervous waving of his fingers] Yes, yes,
yes, yes: I quite understand: you neednt rub it in.
JENNIFER. But--oh, it is only dawning on me now--I was so surprised
at first--do you dare to tell me that it was to gratify a miserable
jealousy that you deliberately--oh! oh! you murdered him.
RIDGEON. I think I did. It really comes to that.
Thou shalt not kill, but needst not strive
Officiously to keep alive.
I suppose--yes: I killed him.
JENNIFER. And you tell me that! to my face! callously! You are not
afraid!
RIDGEON. I am a doctor: I have nothing to fear. It is not an indictable
offense to call in B. B. Perhaps it ought to be; but it isnt.
JENNIFER. I did not mean that. I meant afraid of my taking the law into
my own hands, and killing you.
RIDGEON. I am so hopelessly idiotic about you that I should not mind it
a bit. You would always remember me if you did that.
JENNIFER. I shall remember you always as a little man who tried to kill
a great one.
RIDGEON. Pardon me. I succeeded.
JENNIFER [with quiet conviction] No. Doctors think they hold the keys
of life and death; but it is not their will that is fulfilled. I dont
believe you made any difference at all.
RIDGEON. Perhaps not. But I intended to.
JENNIFER [looking at him amazedly: not without pity] And you tried to
destroy that wonderful and beautiful life merely because you grudged him
a woman whom you could never have expected to care for you!
RIDGEON. Who kissed my hands. Who believed in me. Who told me her
friendship lasted until death.
JENNIFER. And whom you were betraying.
RIDGEON. No. Whom I was saving.
JENNIFER [gently] Pray, doctor, from what?
RIDGEON. From making a terrible discovery. From having your life laid
waste.
JENNIFER. How?
RIDGEON. No matter. I have saved you. I have been the best friend you
ever had. You are happy. You are well. His works are an imperishable joy
and pride for you.
JENNIFER. And you think that is your doing. Oh doctor, doctor! Sir
Patrick is right: you do think you are a little god. How can you be so
silly? You did not paint those pictures which are my imperishable joy
and pride: you did not speak the words that will always be heavenly
music in my ears. I listen to them now whenever I am tired or sad. That
is why I am always happy.
RIDGEON. Yes, now that he is dead. Were you always happy when he was
alive?
JENNIF
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