pretended
to make him an offer, that, to oblige him, I began to incline to go and
live abroad with him; that I knew nothing could be more agreeable to
him, and that as to me, every place was alike; that, as I had lived
abroad without a husband so many years, it could be no burthen to me to
live abroad again, especially with him. Then we fell to straining our
courtesies upon one another. He told me he was perfectly easy at living
in England, and had squared all his affairs accordingly; for that, as he
had told me he intended to give over all business in the world, as well
the care of managing it as the concern about it, seeing we were both in
condition neither to want it or to have it be worth our while, so I
might see it was his intention, by his getting himself naturalised, and
getting the patent of baronet, &c. Well, for all that, I told him I
accepted his compliment, but I could not but know that his native
country, where his children were breeding up, must be most agreeable to
him, and that, if I was of such value to him, I would be there then, to
enhance the rate of his satisfaction; that wherever he was would be a
home to me, and any place in the world would be England to me if he was
with me; and thus, in short, I brought him to give me leave to oblige
him with going to live abroad, when, in truth, I could not have been
perfectly easy at living in England, unless I had kept constantly within
doors, lest some time or other the dissolute life I had lived here
should have come to be known, and all those wicked things have been
known too, which I now began to be very much ashamed of.

When we closed up our wedding week, in which our Quaker had been so very
handsome to us, I told him how much I thought we were obliged to her for
her generous carriage to us; how she had acted the kindest part through
the whole, and how faithful a friend she had been to me upon all
occasions; and then letting him know a little of her family unhappiness,
I proposed that I thought I not only ought to be grateful to her, but
really to do something extraordinary for her, towards making her easy in
her affairs. And I added, that I had no hangers-on that should trouble
him; that there was nobody belonged to me but what was thoroughly
provided for, and that, if I did something for this honest woman that
was considerable, it should be the last gift I would give to anybody in
the world but Amy; and as for her, we were not agoing to turn her
adr