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d as the favorite of the public a woman who, you can see, cannot come near to what you used to do. And I suppose you won't be jealous of her, and anxious to defeat her on the old ground." "I can do with that as you suggested about the newspapers: I need not go to the theatre." "Very well, Gerty. I hope all will be for the best. But do not be in a hurry; take time and consider." She saw clearly enough that this calm acquiescence was all the congratulation or advice she was likely to get; and she went to the door. "Papa," said she, diffidently, "Sir Keith Macleod is coming up to-morrow morning--to go to church with us." "Yes?" said he, indifferently. "He may speak to you before we go." "Very well. Of course I have nothing to say in the matter. You are mistress of your own actions." She went to her own room, and locked herself in, feeling very lonely, and disheartened, and miserable. There was more to alarm her in her father's faintly expressed doubts than in all Carry's vehement opposition and taunts. Why had Macleod left her alone?--if only she could see him laugh, her courage would be reassured. Then she bethought her that this was not a fit mood for one who had promised to be the wife of a Macleod. She went to the mirror and regarded herself; and almost unconsciously an expression of pride and resolve appeared about the lines of her mouth. And she would show to herself that she had still a woman's feelings by going out and doing some actual work of charity; she would prove to herself that the constant simulation of noble emotions had not deadened them in her own nature. She put on her hat and shawl, and went downstairs, and went out into the free air and the sunlight--without a word to either Carry or her father. She was trying to imagine herself as having already left the stage and all its fictitious allurements. She was now Lady Bountiful: having looked after the simple cares of her household she was now ready to cast her eyes abroad, and relieve in so far as she might the distress around her. The first object of charity she encountered was an old crossing-sweeper. She addressed him in a matter-of-fact way which was intended to conceal her fluttering self-consciousness. She inquired whether he had a wife; whether he had any children; whether they were not rather poor. And having been answered in the affirmative on all these points, she surprised the old man by giving him five shillings and tellin
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