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uld not do that! He no longer wanted to do that. For the questions Jonathan had left burning in David's heart had answered themselves. As he watched her, he saw what on the high mount he had refused to see. He had hurt her enough. Not through another hurt could he find healing for her. And it would hurt her, what he had planned. It would take from her all that he loved; and it would add shame, the shame of cowardice, if not of cruelty to others. He could not do that; even if she were willing he could not. Yielding was not the simple thing it had seemed. Something he lacked--or something he had--which forever shut the gates of that kingdom upon him. It had been but an evil impossible dream. But a beautiful dream! There was yet no joy in renunciation. David went down from the mount into the valley where shadows were deep and unbroken. "And so the story ends happily, as it should. Everything has come out right." "No! Everything has not come out right!" "You mustn't say that. You mustn't think--" "Esther!" It was hard to meet her eyes then. "I've got to say it--to let you see the sort of man I am. Last night I was thinking of--of what has happened to us and what we would do. There seemed only one way out that I could bear. I made up my mind. I was going to you to tell you that I would get free--I would have managed that somehow--and then come to you. I could have done it--last night." The smile faded. She waited for him to continue. "But Smith stopped me. I am glad he stopped me. For now--" He could not go on. "Now you can't. Is that it?" "I can't." "I am glad you can't." She said it very quietly. Her eyes left his and turned to the sunny window. But the light that shone on the thin tired face came not from without. The ugly tempter lifted its wings and flew swiftly away. "Are you," he began again at last, "revising your opinion of me? I hope you are." A hand fell lightly on his lips. "I don't want to revise my opinion of you. I couldn't. And I understand--what you wanted and why it is impossible for us. Because--last night-- I could have let you do it." "Oh, Esther, I never meant to hurt you. Can you believe that?" "I know. But you haven't hurt me--even though for a while I was shameless as I never thought I could be. I said the story has ended happily. And it has--with the happiest ending possible, the only happy ending it could have. Because
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