e pension: but,
perhaps, he will be so much taken up with Canterbury, that it will do
for some dull evening at Hilborough.

I shall now stop, till I have been on board the Admiral. Only, tell
Mrs. T. that I will write her the first safe opportunity; I am not
sure of this.

I shall direct to Merton, after June 1st. Therefore, as you change,
make Davison take a direction to Nepean; but, I would not trouble him
with too many directions, for fear of embroil.

May 23d.

We were close in with Brest, yesterday; and found, by a frigate, that
Admiral Cornwallis had a rendezvous at sea. Thither we went; but, to
this hour, cannot find him.

It blows strong. What wind we are losing! If I cannot find the
Admiral by six o'clock, we must all go into the Amphion, and leave
the Victory, to my great mortification. So much for the wisdom of my
superiors.

I keep my letter open to the last: for, I still hope; as, I am sure,
there is no good reason for my not going out in the Victory.

I am just embarking in the Amphion; cannot find Admiral Cornwallis.

May God in Heaven bless you! prays your most sincere

NELSON & BRONTE.

Stephens's publication I should like to have.

I have left my silver seal; at least, I cannot find it.

LETTER XXXII.

[July 1803.

MY DEAREST EMMA,

Although I have wrote letters from various places, merely to
say--"Here I am," and "There I am;"--yet, as I have no doubt but
that they would all be read, it was impossible for me to say more
than--"Here I am, and well:" and I see no prospect of any certain mode
of conveyance, but by sea; which, with the means the Admiralty has
given me, of small vessels, can be but seldom.

Our passages have been enormously long. From Gibraltar to Malta, we
were eleven days: arriving the fifteenth in the evening, and sailing
in the night of the sixteenth--that is, three in the morning of the
seventeenth--and it was the twenty-sixth before we got off Capri;
where I had ordered the frigate, which carried Mr. Elliot to Naples,
to join me.

I send you copies of the King and Queen's letters. I am vexed, that
she did not mention you! I can only account for it, by her's being a
political letter.

When I wrote to the Queen, I said--"I left Lady Hamilton, the
eighteenth of May; and so attached to your Majesty, that I am sure she
would lay down her life to preserve your's. Your Majesty never had a
more sincere, attached, and real friend, than your dear Emma. Y