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nd courtin' her. I reckon"--those were hard words to say, but he said them--"I reckon you had the right of it when you said I was fixin' to break my heart anyhow. They won't ever let her marry me." It did not seem to him that it would help matters to explain that even now he felt disloyal to his whole religion of love, and that he had asked her only because he realized that no other man here could bring Happy's life to fulfilment, while Anne could only step down to him in condescension. The decision which he had reached after tossing in a fevered delirium of spirit lacked sanity. From no point of view would it conform to the gauge of soundness. In giving up Anne, when Anne had told him he might hope, he had construed all the sacrifice as his own. As to Anne's rights in the matter, he was blinded by the over-modest conviction that she was giving all and he taking all and that she could never _need_ him. He would in later years have reasoned differently--but he had been absorbing too fast to digest thoroughly, and the concepts of his new-found chivalry had become a distorted quixoticism. He meant it only for self-effacing fairness--and it was of course unfairness to himself, to Anne, and even to Happy. But she divined his unconfessed thought with the certitude of intuition. "Boone," she told him, as she rose and laid a tremulous hand on his arm, "you've done tried as hard as a man can to make the best of a bad business. It wasn't anybody's fault that things fell out this way. It just came to pass. I'm going to try to teach some of the right young children over at the school next autumn--so what little I've learned won't be wasted, after all. I want that we shall go on being good friends--but just for a little while we'd better not see very much of each other. It hurts too bad." That was an unshakeable determination, and when, in obedience to the edict, Boone had not come back for a week, Cyrus asked his daughter briefly: "When do you an' Boone aim ter be wedded?" The girl flinched again, but her voice was steady as she replied: "We--don't--never aim to be." The old fellow's features stiffened into the stern indignation of an affronted Indian chief. He took the pipe from between his teeth as he set his shoulders, and that baleful light, that had come rarely in a life-span, returned to his eyes. "Ef he don't aim ter wed with ye," came the slow pronouncement, "thar hain't no fashion he kin escape an ac
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