man, who, for my sake, had incurred his displeasure; and whose name he
could not, a few days before, permit to pass through my lips! But see
the wonderful ways of Providence! The very things that I most dreaded
his seeing or knowing, the contents of my papers, have, as I hope,
satisfied all his scruples, and been a means to promote my happiness.

Henceforth let not us poor short-sighted mortals pretend to rely on
our own wisdom; or vainly think, that we are absolutely to direct for
ourselves. I have abundant reason, I am sure, to say, that, when I was
most disappointed, I was nearer my happiness: for had I made my escape,
which was so often my chief point in view, and what I had placed my
heart upon, I had escaped the blessings now before me, and fallen,
perhaps headlong, into the miseries I would have avoided. And yet, after
all, it was necessary I should take the steps I did, to bring on this
wonderful turn: O the unsearchable wisdom of God!--And how much ought
I to adore the divine goodness, and humble myself, who am made a poor
instrument, as I hope, not only to magnify his graciousness to this fine
gentleman and myself, but also to dispense benefits to others! Which God
of his mercy grant!

In the agreeable manner I have mentioned, did we pass the time in our
second happy tour; and I thought Mrs. Jewkes would have sunk into the
ground, when she saw Mr. Williams brought in the coach with us, and
treated so kindly. We dined together in a most pleasant, easy, and frank
manner; and I found I need not, from my master's generosity, to be under
any restraint, as to my conduct to this good clergyman: For he, so often
as he fancied I was reserved, moved me to be free with him, and to him;
and several times called upon me to help my father and Mr. Williams; and
seemed to take great delight in seeing me carve, as, indeed, he does in
every thing I do.

After dinner we went and looked into the chapel, which is a very pretty
one, and very decent; and, when finished as he designs it, against his
next coming down, will be a very pretty place.

My heart, my dear mother, when I first set my foot in it, throbbed a
good deal, with awful joy, at the thoughts of the solemnity, which, I
hope, will in a few days be performed here. And when I came up
towards the little pretty altar-piece, while they were looking at a
communion-picture, and saying it was prettily done, I gently stept into
a corner, out of sight, and poured out my soul