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ron! hurra! again hurra!" Sonnenkamp could not utter a word. Was the world mocking at him? He could not tell how he got up the steps. In a moment he was sitting in a large chair; he gazed at the mirror, as if in that room too the reflection of the negro must confront him there. He sat there, staring, without speaking a word. CHAPTER IV. DISSECTED. Sonnenkamp leaned back in the arm-chair and stared before him; then he looked at the chair itself and caught hold of the arms of it, as if he wanted to ask, Does the chair I am sitting on still hold together? Then, as he laid his hand upon his breast, he began to quiver like an aspen; he felt the order, tore it off with vehemence, and cried:-- "So it in, I must struggle with two worlds. I must fight with the old one as I have with the new. Cheer up! the new hunt is beginning. I will not suffer myself to be put down. I must either despise myself, or despise you; we will see who is strongest, who is most worthy." It breathed new life into him to think that the world so despised him. "Just so! I can do that too; I despise you all!" "But the children! the children!" something whispered to him. When he was waging war in America, the children knew nothing of it. He rang and asked:-- "Where is Roland?" "The young master has not got back yet; he was here at twelve o'clock, and asked for you, but he rode away again with some comrades." "He should have waited," exclaimed Sonnenkamp. "Well--it is better so," he said, calming himself. Again he was sitting alone; his mind turned inward on itself, and now the matter was clear to him. So it was that the men outside the printing-office had been reading; it was through mockery that the poor devils in front of the hotel had raised a cheer for him. He stood up and looked through the window. The hack-drivers were standing together in a group, and the dwarf was reading to them from the newspaper; they may have felt that Sonnenkamp was looking at them, for all at once they turned their gaze upwards, and Sonnenkamp as if struck by a hundred bullets staggered back into the middle of the room; then he sat down and held his open hands together between his knees. He had gazed into an abyss; it had dizzied him, but he was composing himself with courage and decision. He knew how at this moment they were talking about him all over the city, in carpeted hall
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