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t way?" His quiet interrogations pierced her excitement as no opposition could have done. Her next reply, when it came, was almost devoid of passion. "I wish to study. I must have my time for that, not fritter it away on managing servants and going to faculty dinners." "To study what?" Again she flung up her head, and her eyes glittered. Her voice, though, was now under perfect control. "To study my religion, to learn to know it through and through." "I thought you knew it now." She looked at him as from a measureless height of wisdom and experience. "Does one ever know the Infinite? Our belief can not be packed into a neat bundle and tied up in the Apostles Creed. It is deeper than that, and far, far wider. And then," and, to Brenton's astonishment, her face lighted with a smile which was curiously akin to one of happy peace; "and, in time, I shall do my best to prepare myself to be a Healer." "Katharine!" Despite the peaceful smile which had heralded the announcement, Brenton felt his whole nature recoiling from the thought. "Why not?" she asked him swiftly. "You mean I am not worthy? Of course not--yet. In time, though, it will come; in time, I shall be free from thoughts such as have dragged me down into to-day's discussion. Not, though, while I live with you as you are now. Not while I have the daily friction of your unbelief and opposition. While these confront me, I am tied down to the lower level; the hour has come when I know it is my higher duty to go free. For that reason, I have told you this, to-day. One has to make practical plans, even if it is to carry out spiritual endeavours. There are things to arrange, before I go." There came a little silence. Then,-- "You are really going?" Brenton asked. "I am." "When?" "I promised to be in Boston, early in the week." Again there came the silence. This time, it lasted until, with an ostentatiously natural step, Katharine turned away and left the room. Then, for an instant, Brenton stood staring after her. An instant later, he had dropped down at his desk and buried his face within the circle of his clasped arms, covering his ears to shut out the echo of his wife's accusing words. He tried to drive off from his mind the ugly question how far he himself had been blamable for this thing; how far he might have steadied Katharine by forcing her to go with him into all the secrets of his life. Instead, he tried to fix his mind upon th
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