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e from my life of shame and misery. There was no other way--and--and we had to choose! He was so noble--it was I who--who--gave myself to him; he never exacted--anything. I--loved him as only God and I can know! Poor Lans never comprehended why I left--but he--my husband was ill; dying and I could not help it. Something made me go back. It was the good in me that Lans had created that most of all compelled me to go. If Lans could believe that! oh! if he only could! A woman could, but could a man?" Poor Cynthia was struggling to understand a strange language. "I'm right sure," she faltered, "that Lans could understand." "Do you think so? Oh! I have been so tortured. He told me to come to him if I needed him and God knows I need him now--but I wanted most of all--not to hurt him--or exact too much from his goodness. You see----" a palpitating pause followed. Then: "I did not _know_ of my condition when I went away; I only heard and saw the wretched man who was once, who was still--my husband. I stayed and nursed him; he died--a month ago--and now--I must think of--of--the child!" "The child?" Faintly Cynthia repeated the words and her bewildered mind struggled with them and fitted them, somehow, into the Hopes' cabin, and that scene where Marcia Lowe arraigned Liza. The door of the sitting-room opened and Lans entered noiselessly. Marian Spaulding's back was toward it and in her slow, vague way Cynthia was wondering why he should be there just then. The last shielding crust of childhood was breaking away from Cynthia--her womanhood, full and glowing, was being fanned to flame by the appeal this strange woman was making upon it. Cynthia, the girl who had been caught in the net, had no longer any part in this tragedy--she was free! "The child?" she again repeated, "what child?" "Why, Lans's and mine!" Then Cynthia stood up quite firm and straight. She looked full and commandingly at Lans who was leaning, deadly white, against the door he had closed behind him. "Here is Lans, now," she said, more to the haggard man than to the pale woman. It was as if, in those four simple words, she appealed to the best and finest of him to deal with this fearful responsibility which was his, not hers. In that instant she relinquished all the forced ties that held him and her--she cast him off superbly at this critical time of his life; not bitterly or unkindly--but faithfully. Marian Spaulding turn
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