and if he needs retirement or books, where can he find
a retreat to hide himself, or a secret place where he can, like
Jacob, wrestle till the dawn of day? He is a target to be shot at
by every one; his weaknesses and failings tried every way; and,
after his youth, his health, his life, his all are spent, he too
often dies an enfeebled and impoverished man. But, bless the Lord,
all does not end here. We have "a building of God, eternal in the
heavens;" and we have a home "where the wicked cease from
troubling, and the weary are at rest."

Dr. Ryerson resumes his diary on the 9th of May. He says:

My time has of late been much taken up with provincial affairs. I
have felt a hardness towards those who I think are injuring the
interests of the country, and with whom it has fallen to my lot to
be much engaged in controversy. Necessity seems at present to be
laid upon me, from which I cannot free myself.

_May 10th--Sunday._--To-day I delivered a discourse on Missions. I
had intended much, this being a favourite topic with me, but I made
out nothing, and I felt truly humbled.

_Aug. 1st._--For months past I have been greatly tried. My
controversial labours have occupied too much of my time and
attention. I thank God, the day of deliverance seems to be dawning.
The invisible hand of the infinitely wise Being is clearly at work,
and I have no doubt the result will be to His glory.

Dr. Ryerson then continues the narrative of his life. He says:--

A change in my domestic and public life now commenced, which involved
my marriage, and my appointment to the Hamilton and Ancaster Circuits.
In my diary I say:--

_Aug. 24th._--I soon expect to alter my situation in life. What an
important step! How much depends upon it in respect to my comfort,
my literary and religious improvement, and my usefulness in the
Church? I have kept up a correspondence with a lady since and
before I was an itinerant preacher; but postponed marriage since I
became a minister, thinking that I should be more useful as a
single man. My ministerial friends all advise me now to marry, as
every obstacle seems moved out of the way and I have now travelled
three years.

_Ancaster, Oct. 31st._--I have passed through a variety of scenes
since I last noted the dealings of the Lord with me. On the 10th o