what to say.
"I've read that and heard it many a time; but we've been such a
heathenish lot, I'm afraid He's left us to ourselves."
"If He has remembered Daniel, that should encourage you."
"He's not lived without thinking of Him as many years as I have."
She sat with bowed head, quietly weeping, the picture of despair. I
touched the hard, wrinkled hand that had so often generously ministered
to the wants of others.
"Have you asked Christ to forgive you?"
"Asked Him?" she sobbed, "I've been crying day and night for weeks; but
I'm only getting further away all the time."
"Does your son, or Mr. Lathrop know?"
"I reckon they don't. I was ashamed for any one to know; but I couldn't
help telling you."
"I think it is because you are ashamed that Christ don't bless you."
"I've felt I ought to get up and tell them in meeting what a sinner I've
been; but I've always prided myself on being as good as them that's made
a perfession, and they all know what a hard, proud wretch I am. I expect
they'd say I was a hypocrite."
"I think if you confessed to your church what you have just told me, and
asked them to pray for you, God would make you His child. It seems to me
any petition Mr. Lathrop and Mr. Bowen would dare to present would be
received and granted."
"It's hard on flesh and blood," she moaned.
I saw she was in deep distress and could not understand why she was
unwilling to make the confession that might bring peace.
"I wish I'd tended to this when I was young and my heart was easier made
new. It's next to impossible to make a crooked old tree turn and grow
straight."
"With God nothing is impossible," I whispered encouragingly.
"Yes, the minister said that last night, and looked straight at me. Maybe
he saw trouble in my face, and wanted to help me in spite of myself."
She grew calmer at last. "Now I won't worry you any longer, and I believe
I feel better for telling you. I mean to tell them to-night what a proud,
stubborn wretch I've been, and ask them to pray for me."
She got up and put on her shawl with a resolute air as if her mind was
fully made up, no matter how hard the task might be.
"We'll step in and see the Larkums. You'll hardly know them now, they're
so perked up and tidy. Deary me! how far a little help goes sometimes
when folks have a mind to help theirselves."
On our way she said, with matter-of-fact calmness, at the same time
setting my blood thrilling through my veins
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