ersuaded I am justice will be done to my
reputation hereafter.--The manner and cause, of raising and keeping
up the popular clamour and prejudice against me, will be seen
through.--I shall be considered, (as I now perceive myself) a victim,
destined to divert the indignation and resentment of an injured and
deluded people, from the proper objects.--My enemies themselves,
must, now, think me innocent,--Happy for me at this last moment, that
I know_ my own _innocence, and am conscious, that no part of my
country's misfortunes can be owing to me.--I heartily wish the
shedding my blood may contribute to the happiness and service of my
country;--but cannot resign my just claim to a faithful discharge of
my duty, according to the best of my judgment, and the utmost
exertion of my ability, for his Majesty's honour and my country's
service.--I am sorry that my endeavours were not attended with more
success, and that the armament under my command proved too weak to
succeed, in an expedition of such moment.--_Truth _has prevailed over
calumny and_ falshood, _and justice has wiped off the ignominious
stain of my_ supposed _want of personal courage, or disaffection--my
heart acquits me of these crimes,--but who can be presumptuously sure
of his own judgment?--If my crime is an error in judgment, or_
differing _in opinion from my judges; and if yet, the_ error _in
judgment should be on their side,--God forgive them, as I do; and
may,_ the distress of their minds, and uneasiness of their
consciences, which in justice to me _they have represented, be
relieved, and subside, as my resentment has done.--The supreme Judge
sees all hearts and motives, and to him I must submit the Justice of
my cause._"
J. BYNG.
Soon after he had so spoke, an officer came to the cabbin-door, and in a
low voice informed one of his friends the hour of twelve was drawing near.
He, overhearing, replied, "_It is very well_;" and retired into the
state-room for about three minutes. In the mean time the cabbin-doors
were thrown open, and the Admiral, opening the state-room-door, came out,
with a stately pace and composed countenance: he made a bow to his friends
in the cabbin, and speaking to the Marshal, "_Come along_," said he, "_my
friend_;" and walked out upon the quarter-deck. Then turning to the
Marshal, with an easy bow,
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