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l; after breakfast, however, Mark proposed to spend some time in seeing the place, an arrangement which he thought would lead the way to confession. But Holroyd would not hear of this; he seemed possessed by a feverish impatience to get to London without delay, and very soon they were pacing the Plymouth railway platform together, waiting for the up train, Mark oppressed by the gloomy conviction that if he did not speak soon, the favourable moment would pass away, never to return. 'Where do you think of going to first when you get in?' he asked, in dread of the answer. 'I don't know,' said Holroyd; 'the Great Western, I suppose--it's the nearest.' 'You mustn't go to an hotel,' said Mark; 'won't you come to my rooms? I don't live with my people any longer, you know, and I can easily put you up.' He was thinking that this arrangement would give him a little more time for his confession. 'Thanks,' said Holroyd gratefully; 'it's very kind of you to think of that, old fellow; I will come to you, then--but there is a house I must go to as soon as we get in: you won't mind if I run away for an hour or two, will you?' Mark remembered what Caffyn had said. 'There will be plenty of time for that to-morrow, won't there?' he said nervously. 'No,' said Holroyd impatiently; 'I can't wait. I daren't. I have let so much time go by already--you will understand when I tell you all about it, Mark. I can't rest till I know whether there is still a chance of happiness left for me, or--or whether I have come too late and the dream is over.' In that letter which had fallen into Caffyn's hands Holroyd had told Mabel the love he had concealed so long; he had begged her not to decide too hastily; he would wait any time for her answer, he said, if she did not feel able to give it at once; and in the meantime she should be troubled by no further importunities on his part. This was not, perhaps, the most judicious promise to make; he had given it from an impulse of consideration for her, being well aware that she had never looked upon him as a possible lover, and that his declaration would come upon her with a certain shock. Perhaps, too, he wanted to leave himself a margin of hope as long as possible to make his exile endurable; since for months, if no answer came back to him, he could cheat himself with the thought that such silence was favourable in itself; but even when he came to regret his promise, he shrank from risking all
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