FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   293   294   295   296   297   298   299   300   301   302   303   304   305   306   307   308   309   310   311   312   313   314   315   316   317  
318   319   320   321   322   323   324   325   326   327   328   329   330   331   332   333   334   335   336   337   338   339   340   341   342   >>   >|  
ridal bed that filled him with the most intense pangs of jealousy--Herr Carovius sat in his room playing Chopin's _etude_ of the revolution. He would begin it again and again; he struck the keys with ever-increasing violence; the time in which he played the _etude_ became wilder and wilder; the swing of his gestures became more and more eloquent; and his face became more and more threatening. He was squaring accounts with the woman he had been unable to bring before his Neronic tribunal in bodily form; and all the pent-up hatred in his heart for the musician Nothafft he was emptying into the music of another man. The envy of the man doomed to limit his display of talent to the appreciation of what another had created laid violent hands on the creator; the impotence of the taster was infuriated at the cook. It was as if a flunked and floored comedian had gone out into the woods to declaim his part with nothing but the echo of his own voice to answer back. His hatred of things in general, of the customs of human society, of order and prosperity, of state and family, of love and marriage, of man and woman, had burst out into lurid flames. It was rare that a man had so cut, slashed, and vilified himself as did this depatriated citizen while playing the piano. He converted music into an orgy, a debauch, a debasing crime. "Enough!" he bellowed, as he closed with an ear-splitting discord. He shut the piano with a vituperative bang, and threw himself into a rickety leather chair. What his inner eye saw mocks at language and defies human speech. He was in that house over there; it lay in his power to murder his rival; he could abuse the woman who had been denied him by the wily tricks of circumstances; he chastised her; he dragged her from her bed of pleasure by the hair. He feasted on her sense of shame and on the angry twitchings of the musician, tied, bound, and gagged. He spared them no word of calumniation. The whole city stood before his court, and listened to the sentence he passed. Everybody stood in awe of him. Thus it is that the citizen of the moral stature of Herr Carovius satisfies his thirst for revenge. Thus does the Nero of our time punish the crimes mankind commits against him in that it creates pleasures and enjoyments of which he is not in a position to partake. But because he felt more abandoned to-day than ever, and more fearful in his abandonment, and because he felt so keenly the injustice done
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   293   294   295   296   297   298   299   300   301   302   303   304   305   306   307   308   309   310   311   312   313   314   315   316   317  
318   319   320   321   322   323   324   325   326   327   328   329   330   331   332   333   334   335   336   337   338   339   340   341   342   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

musician

 

hatred

 
citizen
 

wilder

 
playing
 

Carovius

 
murder
 

fearful

 
tricks
 

circumstances


chastised

 
dragged
 

denied

 
injustice
 
vituperative
 

discord

 

bellowed

 

closed

 

splitting

 

keenly


rickety
 

language

 
defies
 
leather
 

abandonment

 
speech
 

abandoned

 

pleasures

 

creates

 
Everybody

passed
 

listened

 
sentence
 

enjoyments

 

stature

 
satisfies
 

mankind

 

punish

 

commits

 

thirst


revenge

 

Enough

 

position

 

twitchings

 

feasted

 
crimes
 

gagged

 

spared

 

partake

 
calumniation