FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163   164   165   166   167   168  
169   170   171   172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   185   186   187   188   189   190   191   192   193   >>   >|  
atrocious monster that pollutes Jove's pure air by his breath!" "Bidding," he exclaimed, starting back in horror, "Catiline's bidding?" "My father's," answered the miserable girl. "My own father's bidding!" "Ye gods! ye gods! His own daughter's purity!" "Purity!" she replied, with a smile of sad bitter irony. "Do you think purity could long exist in the same house with Catiline and Orestilla? Paullus Arvina, the scenes I have beheld, the orgies I have shared, the atmosphere of voluptuous sin I have breathed, almost from my cradle, had changed the cold heart of the virgin huntress into the fiery pulses of the wanton Venus! Since I was ten years old, I have been, wo is me! familiar with all luxury, all infamy, all degradation!" "Great Nemesis!" he cried, turning up his indignant eyes toward heaven. "But, in the name of all the Gods! wherefore, wherefore? Even to the worst, the most debased of wretches, their children's honor is still dear." "Nothing is dear to Catiline but riot, and debauchery, and murder! Sin, for its own sake, even more than for the rewards its offers to its votaries! Paullus, men called me beautiful! But what cared I for beauty, that charmed all but him, whom alone I desired to fascinate? Men called me beautiful, I say! and in my father's sight that beauty became precious, when he foresaw that it might prove a means of winning followers to his accursed cause! Then was I educated in all arts, all graces, all accomplishments that might enhance my charms; and, as those fatal charms could avail him nothing, so long as purity remained or virtue, I was taught, ah! too easily! to esteem pleasure the sole good, passion the only guide! Taught thus, by my own parents! Curses, curses, and shame upon them! Pity me, pity me, Paullus. Oh! you are bound to pity me! for had I not loved you, fatally, desperately loved, and known that I could not win you, perchance--perchance I had not fallen. Oh! pity me, and pardon----" "Pardon you, Lucia," he interrupted her. "What have you done to me, or who am I, that you should crave my pardon?" "What have I done? Do you ask in mockery? Have not I made you the partaker of my sin? Have not I lured you into falsehood, momentary falsehood it is true, yet still falsehood, to your Julia? Have I not tangled you in the nets of this most foul conspiracy? Betrayed you, a bound slave, to the monster--the soul-destroyer?" Arvina groaned aloud, but made no answer, so deeply
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163   164   165   166   167   168  
169   170   171   172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   185   186   187   188   189   190   191   192   193   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

falsehood

 

Paullus

 

purity

 

father

 

Catiline

 

wherefore

 

Arvina

 

beauty

 

perchance

 

pardon


bidding
 

called

 

monster

 
charms
 
beautiful
 
esteem
 

easily

 
foresaw
 

pleasure

 

virtue


taught

 

precious

 

winning

 

followers

 

educated

 

graces

 

accursed

 

accomplishments

 

enhance

 

remained


desperately
 
tangled
 
momentary
 

mockery

 

partaker

 

answer

 

deeply

 

groaned

 
destroyer
 
conspiracy

Betrayed

 

curses

 
Curses
 

parents

 
Taught
 

fatally

 
interrupted
 

Pardon

 

fallen

 
passion