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the voice of the priest as he read the funeral rite over his dead mother had made upon his infant mind--the impression of _spoken_ music. His Virginia could no longer sing, but every word that fell from her lips was music. As she and her tall, nun-like mother quietly stepped about the rooms ministering to his comfort, lifting the work of preparing the simple meals, mending the fire, and keeping the rooms bright into a sacred rite by the grace, the care, the dignity with which it was performed, no word, no look escaped either save of tenderness, patience, and boundless love. All the reproaches came from within his own breast--from that inner self that boldly tearing the veil from his deeds filled him with loathing of himself. The years, his troubles, and his illness, had wrought a great change in him--outwardly. The dark ringlets that framed his face were still untouched with rime, and the dark grey eyes were as vivid, as ever-varying in expression as before, but the large brow wore a furrow and over it and the clear-cut features and the emaciated cheeks was a settled pallor. The face was still very beautiful, but in repose it was melancholy and about the mouth there was a touch of bitterness. The illumining smile still flashed out at times, and filled all his countenance with sweetness and light--but it was rarer than formerly. He had many reasons for being happy--for being thankful. The genius with which he was conscious he was endowed in larger measure than others of his generation was being recognized. He had fame--growing fame--and money enough for his needs. He had what was as necessary to his soul as meat was to his body--the love of a woman who understood him in all his moods and who was beautiful enough in mind and in body and pure enough in spirit for him to worship as well as to love--to satisfy his soul as well as his senses. And this woman, at the very moment when he thought himself about to lose her forever, had been given back to him--given back clothed upon with a finer a more exquisite beauty than she had possessed before. He had indeed found the end of the rainbow, but what did it amount to? He was dissatisfied--not with what life was giving him, but with what he was doing with his life. At the moment when his cup was fairly overflowing with happiness and he should have been strongest, he had suffered himself to be led away by the Imp of the Perverse, and had spoiled all. Nothing he had ever be
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