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me home because here she was loved, here, at least, through all the village--the village about which she trod like one of God's kind angels--I shall be certain of meeting a keen and assured sympathy in my sorrow. "... Where indeed The roof so lowly but that beam of heaven Dawned some time through the door-way?" And yet, now that I am here, the village seems much as it was. Still the same groups of fat, frolicking children about the doors; still the same busy women at the wash-tub; about the house still the same coarse laughs. It would be most unnatural, impossible that it should not be so, and yet I feel angry--sorely angry with them. One day when this sense of rawness is at its worst and sharpest, I resolve that I will pay a visit to the almshouse. There, at least, I shall find that she is remembered; there, out of mere selfishness, they must grieve for her. When will they, in their unlovely eld, ever find such a friend again? So I go there. I find the old women, some crooning over the fire, half asleep, some squabbling. I suppose they are glad to see me, though not _so_ glad when they discover that I have brought no gift in my hand, for indeed I have forgotten--no quarter-pounds of tea--no little three-cornered parcels of sugar. They begin to talk about Barbara at once. Among the poor there is never any sacredness about the names of the dead, and though I have hungered for sorrowful talk about her, for assurance that by some one besides myself the awful emptiness of her place is felt, yet I wince and shrink from hearing her lightly named in common speech. They are sorry about her, certainly--quite sorry--but it is more what they have lost by her, than her that they deplore. And they are more taken up with their own little miserable squabbles--with detracting tales of one another--than with either. "Eh? she's a bad 'un, she is! I says to her, says I, 'Sally,' says I, 'if you'll give yourself hully and whully to the Lord for one week, I'll give you a _hounce_ of baccy,' and she's that wicked, she actilly would not." Is _this_ the sort of thing I have come to hear? I rise up hastily, and take my leave. As I walk home again through the wintry roads, and my eyes fix themselves with a tired languor on the green ivy-flowers--on the little gray-green lichen-cups on the almshouse-wall, I think, "Does _no one_ remember her? Is she already altogether forgotten?" It is still early in the aft
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