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re you" (speaking with great earnestness) "that I had as much idea of marrying you as of marrying _father_!" Looking back with mature reflection at this speech, I think that it may be safely reckoned among my unlucky things. "No," he says, wincing a little, a very little. "I know you had not; but--you have not answered my question." For a moment I look down irresolute, then, through some fixed belief in him, I look up and tell him the plain, bare truth. "I _did_ think that it would be a nice thing for the boys," I say, "and so it will, there is no doubt; you will be as good as a fa--, as a brother to them; but--I like you _myself_ besides, you may believe it or not as you please, but it is quite, _quite_, QUITE true." As I speak, the tears steal into my eyes. "And _I_ like _you_!" he answers very simply, and so saying, stoops, and with a sort of diffidence, kisses me. * * * * * "Well, how did it go off?" cries Bobby, curiously, when I next rejoin my compeers. "Did you laugh?" "_Laugh!_" I echo, with lofty anger, "I do not know what you mean! I never felt in the least inclined." Then seeing my brethren look rather aghast at this sudden change in the wind, I add gayly: "Bobby, you must never again breathe a word about Sir Roger's having been at school with father; let it be supposed that he did without education." CHAPTER VIII. This is my wooing: thus I am disposed of. Without a shadow of previous flirtation with any man born of woman--without any of the ups and downs, the ins and outs of an ordinary love-affair, I place my fate in Sir Roger's hands. Henceforth I must have done with all girlish speculations, as to the manner of man who is to drop from the clouds to be my wooer. Well, I have not many day-dreams to relinquish. When I have built Spanish castles--in a large family, one has not time for many--a lover for myself has been less the theme of my aspirations than a benefactor for the family. One, who will exercise a wholesomely repressive influence over father, has been more than any thing the theme of my longings; on the unlikely hypothesis of my marrying at all. For, O friends, it has seemed to me _most_ unlikely; I dare say that I might not have been over-difficult--might have thankfully and heartily loved some one not quite a Bayard, but one cannot love _any thing_--any odd and end--and, say what you will, the choice of a country girl, with a little
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