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ment of her youth and loveliness--the subtle influence of physical vigor and spiritual innocence on a tired, unstrung man? "First of all," she said, impulsively, "I know your life--all of it in minute particular. Are you astonished?" "No, madame," I replied; "Mornac showed you my dossier." "That is true," she said, with a troubled look of surprise. I smiled. "As for Mornac," I began, but she interrupted me. "Ah, Mornac! Do you suppose I believed him? Had I not proof on proof of your loyalty, your honor, your courtesy, your chivalry--" "Madame, your generosity--and, I fear, your pity--overpraises." "No, it does not! I know what you are. Mornac cannot make white black! I know what you have been. Mornac could not read you into infamy, even with your dossier under my own eyes!" "In my dossier you read a sorry history, madame." "In your dossier I read the tragedy of a gentleman." "Do you know," said I, "that I am now a performer in a third-rate travelling circus?" "I think that is very sad," she said, sweetly. "Sad? Oh no. It is better than the disciplinary battalions of Africa." Which was simply acknowledging that I had served a term in prison. The color faded in her face. "I thought you were pardoned." "I was--from prison, not from the battalion of Biribi." "I only know," she said, "that they say you were not guilty; that they say you faced utter ruin, even the possibility of death, for the sake of another man whose name even the police--even Monsieur de Mornac--could never learn. Was there such a man?" I hesitated. "Madame, there is such a man; _I_ am the man who _was_." "With no hope?" "Hope? With every hope," I said, smiling. "My name is not my own, but it must serve me to my end, and I shall wear it threadbare and leave it to no one." "Is there no hope?" she asked, quietly. "None for the man who _was_. Much for James Scarlett, tamer of lions and general mountebank," I said, laughing down the rising tide of bitterness. Why had she stirred those dark waters? I had drowned myself in them long since. Under them lay the corpse of a man I had forgotten--my dead self. "No hope?" she repeated. Suddenly the ghost of all I had lost rose before me with her words--rose at last after all these years, towering, terrible, free once more to fill the days with loathing and my nights with hell eternal,... after all these years! Overwhelmed, I fought down the spectre in silence. Kit
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