ment of her youth and
loveliness--the subtle influence of physical vigor and spiritual
innocence on a tired, unstrung man?
"First of all," she said, impulsively, "I know your life--all of it
in minute particular. Are you astonished?"
"No, madame," I replied; "Mornac showed you my dossier."
"That is true," she said, with a troubled look of surprise.
I smiled. "As for Mornac," I began, but she interrupted me.
"Ah, Mornac! Do you suppose I believed him? Had I not proof on proof
of your loyalty, your honor, your courtesy, your chivalry--"
"Madame, your generosity--and, I fear, your pity--overpraises."
"No, it does not! I know what you are. Mornac cannot make white
black! I know what you have been. Mornac could not read you into
infamy, even with your dossier under my own eyes!"
"In my dossier you read a sorry history, madame."
"In your dossier I read the tragedy of a gentleman."
"Do you know," said I, "that I am now a performer in a third-rate
travelling circus?"
"I think that is very sad," she said, sweetly.
"Sad? Oh no. It is better than the disciplinary battalions of
Africa."
Which was simply acknowledging that I had served a term in prison.
The color faded in her face. "I thought you were pardoned."
"I was--from prison, not from the battalion of Biribi."
"I only know," she said, "that they say you were not guilty; that
they say you faced utter ruin, even the possibility of death, for the
sake of another man whose name even the police--even Monsieur de
Mornac--could never learn. Was there such a man?"
I hesitated. "Madame, there is such a man; _I_ am the man who
_was_."
"With no hope?"
"Hope? With every hope," I said, smiling. "My name is not my own,
but it must serve me to my end, and I shall wear it threadbare and
leave it to no one."
"Is there no hope?" she asked, quietly.
"None for the man who _was_. Much for James Scarlett, tamer of lions
and general mountebank," I said, laughing down the rising tide of
bitterness. Why had she stirred those dark waters? I had drowned
myself in them long since. Under them lay the corpse of a man I had
forgotten--my dead self.
"No hope?" she repeated.
Suddenly the ghost of all I had lost rose before me with her
words--rose at last after all these years, towering, terrible, free
once more to fill the days with loathing and my nights with hell
eternal,... after all these years!
Overwhelmed, I fought down the spectre in silence. Kit
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