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s execration: "Oh, this miserable world--this infernal pot where men are boiled!" He rolled his eyes like a choking ox, and after a short silence, asked: "Young fellow, do you know what I'd do if I were of your age?" "If you were of my temperament as well as of my age I don't think you'd do much of anything." "Yes, I would; I would confer a degree of high favor on myself. I would cut my throat, sir." "Pardon me, but is it too late at your time of life?" "Yes, for my nerve is diseased and I am a coward, an infamous, doddering old coward, sir. Good God! to live for years in darkness, bumping against the sharp corners of conscience. I have never told Henry, but I don't mind telling you that at times I am almost mad. For years I have sought to read myself out of it, but to an unsettled mind a book is a sly poison--the greatest of books are but the records of trouble. Don't you say a word to Henry. He thinks that my mind is as sound as a new acorn, but it isn't." "I won't--but, by the way, he is young; why don't you advise him to kill himself?" The old fellow flounced off the sofa and stood bulging his eyes at DeGolyer. "Don't you ever say such a thing as that again!" he snorted. "Why, confound your hide! would you have that boy dead?" DeGolyer threw down his pen. "No, I would have him live forever in his thoughtless and beautiful paradise; I would not pull him down to the thoughtful man's hell of self-communion." "Look here, young man, you must have a history." "No, simply an ill-written essay." "Who was your father?" "A fool." "Ah, I grant you. And who was your mother?" "An angel." "No, sir, she--I beg your pardon," the old man quickly added. "You are sensitive, sir." DeGolyer, sadly smiling, replied: "He who suffered in childhood, and who in after life has walked hand in hand with disappointment, and is then not sensitive, is a brute." "How well do I know the truth of that! DeGolyer, I have been acquainted with you but a short time, but you appeal to me strongly, sir. And I could almost tell you something, but it is something that I ought to keep to myself. I could make you despise me and then offer me your regard as a compromise. Oh, that American republic of ours, fought for by men who scorned the romance of kingly courts, is not so commonplace a country after all. Many strange things happen there, and some of them are desperately foul. Is that Henry coming? Hush." The young m
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