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rfection in politics, in philanthropy, in social reform, and the like,--something by devoting himself to which he could make his life a joy to himself. Then this girl had come across him, and there had suddenly sprung up within him a love so strong that all these other things faded into littlenesses. They should not be discarded. Work would be wanted for his life, and for hers. But here he had found the true salt by which all his work would be vivified and preserved and made holy and happy and glorious. There had come a something to him that was all that he wanted it to be. And now the something was fading from him,--was already all but gone. In such a state how should he tame the selfishness of self? He abandoned the attempt, and told himself that difficulties had been prepared for him greater than any of which he had dreamed when he had hoped that that taming might be within his power. He could not even spare her in his selfishness. He declared to himself that it was so, and almost owned that it would be better that he should not go to her. "Yes," she said, when he sat down beside her on her sofa, at an open window looking out on the little bay, "put your hand on mine, dear, and leave it there. To have you with me, to feel the little breeze, and to see you and to touch you is absolute happiness." "Why did you so often tell me not to come?" "Ah, why? But I know why it was, my lord." There was something half of tenderness, half pleasantry in the mode of address, and now he had ceased to rebel against it. "Why should I not come if it be a joy to you?" "You must not be angry now." "Certainly not angry." "We have got through all that,--you and I have for ourselves;--but there is a sort of unseemliness in your coming down here to see a poor Quaker's daughter." "Marion!" "But there is. We had got through all that in Paradise Row. Paradise Row had become used to you, and I could bear it. But here-- They will all be sure to know who you are." "Who cares?" "That Marion Fay should have a lover would of itself make a stir in this little place;--but that she should have a lord for her lover! One doesn't want to be looked at as a miracle." "The follies of others should not ruffle you and me." "That's very well, dear;--but what if one is ruffled? But I won't be ruffled, and you shall come. When I thought that I should go again to our own house, then I thought we might perhaps dispense with the ruffling
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