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?" "Is it possible, sir?" "It is the truth. But speak not of it. I will have your life if you betray me until the event tells its own tale. We close the door to-night, to open it no more. You hear the words. They are very simple words. Why do you stare so, as if you couldn't guess their meaning?" "Oh--I have dreaded this--I have suspected it!" said Burrage, wringing his hands; "but it has always seemed impossible. Poor Mr Allcraft!" "_Poor!_" exclaimed Michael. "Do you begin already? Do you throw it in my teeth so soon? You are in the right, man--go with the stream--taunt me--spit in my face--trample me in the dust!" "Do not speak unkindly to me, master," said the old clerk. "You will break my heart at once if you do. What you have told me is hard enough to bear in one day." Michael took the good fellow's hand, and answered, whilst his lips quivered with grief, "It is--it is enough, old friend. Go your ways. Leave me to myself. I have told you a secret--keep it whilst it remains one. Oh, what a havoc! What devastation! Go, Burrage--go--seal your lips--do not breathe a syllable--go to your work." The clerk went as he was bid, but stupified and stunned by the information he had received. He took his accustomed seat at the desk, and placed a large ledger before him. He was occupied with one trifling account for half the day, and did not finish it at last. A simple sum of compound addition puzzled the man who, an hour before, could have gone through the whole of the arithmetic in his sleep. Oh, boasted intellect of man! How little is it thou canst do when the delicate and feeling heart is out of tune! How impotent thou art! How like a rudderless ship upon a stormy sea! Poor Burrage was helpless and adrift! And Michael sat for hours together alone, in his little room. He was literally afraid to creep out of it. He struggled to keep his mind steadily and composedly fixed upon the fate that awaited him--a fate which he had marked out for himself, and resolved not to escape. He forced himself to regard the great Enemy of Man as _his_ best friend--his only comforter and refuge. But just when he deemed himself well armed, least vulnerable, and most secure, the awful _reality_ of death--its horrible accompaniments--dissolution, corruption, rottenness, decay, and its still more awful and obscure _uncertainties_, started suddenly before him, and sent a sickening chill through every pore of his unnerved flesh. Then he
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