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In all but love, my dear fellow. And then I agree with you." "No," said Lilly, "in love most intensely of all, alone." "Completely incomprehensible," said Argyle. "Amounts to nothing." "One man is but a part. How can he be so alone?" said the Marchese. "In so far as he is a single individual soul, he IS alone--ipso facto. In so far as I am I, and only I am I, and I am only I, in so far, I am inevitably and eternally alone, and it is my last blessedness to know it, and to accept it, and to live with this as the core of my self-knowledge." "My dear boy, you are becoming metaphysical, and that is as bad as softening of the brain," said Argyle. "All right," said Lilly. "And," said the Marchese, "it may be so by REASON. But in the heart--? Can the heart ever beat quite alone? Plop! Plop!--Can the heart beat quite alone, alone in all the atmosphere, all the space of the universe? Plop! Plop! Plop!--Quite alone in all the space?" A slow smile came over the Italian's face. "It is impossible. It may eat against the heart of other men, in anger, all in pressure against the others. It may beat hard, like iron, saying it is independent. But this is only beating against the heart of mankind, not alone.--But either with or against the heart of mankind, or the heart of someone, mother, wife, friend, children--so must the heart of every man beat. It is so." "It beats alone in its own silence," said Lilly. The Italian shook his head. "We'd better be going inside, anyhow," said Argyle. "Some of you will be taking cold." "Aaron," said Lilly. "Is it true for you?" "Nearly," said Aaron, looking into the quiet, half-amused, yet frightening eyes of the other man. "Or it has been." "A miss is as good as a mile," laughed Lilly, rising and picking up his chair to take it indoors. And the laughter of his voice was so like a simple, deliberate amiability, that Aaron's heart really stood still for a second. He knew that Lilly was alone--as far as he, Aaron, was concerned. Lilly was alone--and out of his isolation came his words, indifferent as to whether they came or not. And he left his friends utterly to their own choice. Utterly to their own choice. Aaron felt that Lilly was _there_, existing in life, yet neither asking for connection nor preventing any connection. He was present, he was the real centre of the group. And yet he asked nothing of them, and he imposed nothing. He left each to himself, and he himself re
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