I ate some more of the turtle's eggs, which were very good.
This evening I renewed the medicine, which I had supposed did me good the
day before--the tobacco steeped in rum; only I did not take so much as
before, nor did I chew any of the leaf, or hold my head over the smoke;
however, I was not so well the next day, which was the first of July, as
I hoped I should have been; for I had a little spice of the cold fit, but
it was not much.

_July_ 2.--I renewed the medicine all the three ways; and dosed myself
with it as at first, and doubled the quantity which I drank.

_July_ 3.--I missed the fit for good and all, though I did not recover my
full strength for some weeks after. While I was thus gathering strength,
my thoughts ran exceedingly upon this Scripture, "I will deliver thee";
and the impossibility of my deliverance lay much upon my mind, in bar of
my ever expecting it; but as I was discouraging myself with such
thoughts, it occurred to my mind that I pored so much upon my deliverance
from the main affliction, that I disregarded the deliverance I had
received, and I was as it were made to ask myself such questions as
these--viz. Have I not been delivered, and wonderfully too, from
sickness--from the most distressed condition that could be, and that was
so frightful to me? and what notice had I taken of it? Had I done my
part? God had delivered me, but I had not glorified Him--that is to say,
I had not owned and been thankful for that as a deliverance; and how
could I expect greater deliverance? This touched my heart very much; and
immediately I knelt down and gave God thanks aloud for my recovery from
my sickness.

_July_ 4.--In the morning I took the Bible; and beginning at the New
Testament, I began seriously to read it, and imposed upon myself to read
a while every morning and every night; not tying myself to the number of
chapters, but long as my thoughts should engage me. It was not long
after I set seriously to this work till I found my heart more deeply and
sincerely affected with the wickedness of my past life. The impression
of my dream revived; and the words, "All these things have not brought
thee to repentance," ran seriously through my thoughts. I was earnestly
begging of God to give me repentance, when it happened providentially,
the very day, that, reading the Scripture, I came to these words: "He is
exalted a Prince and a Saviour, to give repentance and to give
remission." I threw down t