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ow that you are going to misjudge me, and that, because you see certain things from an ethical and I from a purely aesthetic point of view." "I can't admit the division. But no; I hope I shall never _misjudge_ you." She gave me a brief little smile and walked quickly away. Carrington did not come in that evening, and I was glad that my mental anguish had no observer. The next afternoon at two I awaited Miss Jones. My picture, virtually finished, stood regally dominant in the centre of the studio. I hated and I adored it. I saw it with Miss Jones's eyes and I saw it with my own; but her crude ethics had, on the whole, poisoned my aesthetic triumph. At two there came the familiar rap. Miss Jones entered. I was sitting before the picture and rose to meet her. Her face was very white and very cold, and from under the tipped brim of the little hat her eyes looked sternly at me. I looked back at her silently. "I have read 'Manon Lescaut,'" said Miss Jones. I found nothing to say. "You will understand that I cannot sit to-day. You will understand that I never should have sat for you at all had I _known_," Miss Jones pursued. I said that I understood. "I have come to-day to bring you back the money that I have earned under false pretences." She laid the little packet down upon the table. I turned white. "And to ask you"--here Miss Jones observed me steadily--"whether you do not feel that you owe me apologies." "Miss Jones," I said, "I have unwittingly, unintentionally, given you great pain; that, with my present knowledge of your exceptional character, I now see to have been inevitable. I humbly beg your pardon for it, but I also beg you to believe that from the first I never thought of you but with respect and admiration." Miss Jones's face took on quite a terrible look. "Respect! Admiration! While you were looking from me to _that_!" She pointed to Manon. "While I was clothing your imagination, personifying to you that vile creature!" I tried to stop her with an exclamation of shocked denial, but she went on, with fierce dignity: "Exceptional! You call it exceptional to feel debased by that association? Can I ever look at my face again without thinking: 'The face of Manon Lescaut?' Can I ever forget that we were thought of as one? No"--she held up her hand--"let me speak. Do you suppose I cannot see now the cleverness, yes, the diabolical cleverness, of your picture of me there? The likeness
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