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ell me more about your mission work." "I don't like to speak of that," she replied. "It is too much like boasting of what I am doing." She had no sooner said this than she regretted it; her fierce conscience rose up and charged her with uncandid speech. But how could she be candid? "I don't like to think," said Millard, "that so large a part of your life--a part that lies so near to your heart--should be shut out from me. I can't do your kind of work. But I can admire it. Won't you tell me about it?" Phillida felt a keen pang. Had it been a question of her ordinary work in the months that were past she might easily have spoken of it. But this faith-healing would be dangerous ground with Millard. She knew in her heart that it would be better to tell him frankly about it, and face the result. But with him there she could not get courage to bring on an immediate conflict between the affection that was so dear and the work that was so sacred to her. "Charley," she said slowly, holding on to her left hand as though for safety, "I'm afraid I was not very--very candid in the answer I gave you just now." "Oh, don't say anything, or tell me anything, dear, that gives you pain," he said with quick delicacy; "and something about this does pain you." Phillida spoke now in a lower tone, looking down at her hands as she said, with evident effort: "Because you are so good, I must try to be honest with you. There are reasons why I hesitate to tell--to tell--you all about what I am doing. At least this evening, though I know I ought to, and I will--I will--if you insist on it." "No, dear; no. I will not hear it now." "But I will tell you all some time. It's nothing _very_ bad, Charley. At least I don't think it is." "It couldn't be, I'm sure. Nothing bad could exist about you"; and he took her hand in his. "Don't say any more to-night. You are nervous and tired. But some other time, when you feel like it, speak freely. It won't do for us not to open our hearts and lives to each other. If we fail to live openly and truthfully, our little boat will go ashore, Phillida dear--will be wrecked or stranded before we know it." His voice was full of pleading. How could she refuse to tell him all? But by all the love she felt for him, sitting there in front of her, with his left hand on his knee, looking in her face, and speaking in such an honest, manly way, she was restrained from exposing to him a phase of her life that
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