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of you," she cried. "I don't believe you--would have known I was here unless you had caught eight of me." "I should have known it," he said. "How?" "Because I heard you playing. I am sure it was you playing." "Yes, it was I," she answered simply, "but I did not know that--you heard. Where were you? "I suppose," he replied, "a sane witness would have testified that I was in the street--one of those partial and material truths which are so misleading." She laughed again, joyously. "Seriously, why did you come down here?" she insisted. "I am not so absorbed in Humphrey's career that I cannot take an interest in yours. In fact, yours interests me more, because it is more mysterious. Humphrey's," she added, laughing, "is charted from day to day, and announced in bulletins. He is more generous to his friends than--you." "I have nothing to chart," said Austen, "except such pilgrimages as this,--and these, after all, are unchartable. Your friend, Mr. Crewe, on the other hand, is well away on his voyage after the Golden Fleece. I hope he is provided with a Lynceus." She was silent for a long time, but he was feverishly conscious of her gaze upon him, and did not dare to turn his eyes to hers. The look in them he beheld without the aid of physical vision, and in that look was the world-old riddle of her sex typified in the image on the African desert, which Napoleon had tried to read, and failed. And while wisdom was in the look, there was in it likewise the eternal questioning of a fate quite as inscrutable, against which wisdom would avail nothing. It was that look which, for Austen, revealed in her in their infinite variety all women who had lived; those who could resist, and those who could yield, and yielding all, bestow a gift which left them still priceless; those to whom sorrow might bring sadness, and knowledge mourning, and yet could rob them of no jot of sweetness. And knowing this, he knew that to gain her now (could such a high prize be gained!) would be to lose her. If he were anything to her (realize it or not as she might), it was because he found strength to resist this greatest temptation of his life. Yield, and his guerdon was lost, and he would be Austen Vane no longer--yield, and his right to act, which would make him of value in her eyes as well as in his own, was gone forever. Well he knew what the question in her eyes meant or something of what it meant, so inexplicably is the soul of
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