FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   123  
124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   >>   >|  
so she sat and listened, and looked cold and angry by turns, as if his miseries were an impertinence and a wrong to her; trying to take refuge against remorse in a great bravery of hate and contempt! He related the whole history to Forrester who had been in his confidence about the marriage from the beginning. We had no suspicion of the inordinate love, suppressed, chafed, galled, and tortured into madness, he had borne to Astraea all through those years of malediction, during which he had exhausted every form of threat and appeal to enforce his rights. He had hoped on wildly to the last. He had watched the progress of my attachment to her, and had encouraged it under a frantic delusion, that the final detection of it would place her at his mercy. His mind had been so wrought upon by this terrible passion, and the plots and schemes he was forever weaving to win or ensnare her, that much of his conduct which had appeared to me monstrous and absurd, became susceptible of a sufficiently obvious solution. He assigned as a reason for not having adopted legal means to compel the fulfillment of the contract, his fear of driving Astraea to extremities. He had always apprehended that the moment he adopted any step of that kind, she would make her escape from him; and his policy was to keep on terms with her, at all events, and by a system of small, perpetual persecution, to subjugate her at last. And now that she was gone, and that she had put the world between them, what course did he intend to pursue? Implacable vengeance against me--peace and pardon for her! This unintelligible being, whose person was not more hideous than his mind, had yet in the depths of his nature one drop of sweetness that redeemed and made him human. This love had survived all hatreds and revenges; and now that hope was over, that its object never could soothe his agonies or reward his devotion, that even the sufferings he was undergoing on her account only rendered him more repulsive in her eyes, nothing but tenderness and forgiveness toward her remained, with the bitterest regrets and self-accusations for the wrongs he had done her and the issues to which he had forced her. How such a flower of noble and delicate feeling could have sprung up in such a soil was, indeed, inexplicable. But it is wonderful how a great sorrow purifies and strengthens the soul! But for me? There was no clemency for me. The concentrated venom of his nature was reser
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   99   100   101   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   123  
124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

nature

 

Astraea

 

adopted

 

hatreds

 

hideous

 

survived

 

sweetness

 

redeemed

 

person

 

depths


subjugate
 

persecution

 

perpetual

 
policy
 

events

 

system

 

revenges

 

vengeance

 
pardon
 

unintelligible


Implacable

 

pursue

 
intend
 

agonies

 

sprung

 
feeling
 

delicate

 

forced

 

issues

 

flower


inexplicable
 

clemency

 
concentrated
 
wonderful
 

sorrow

 

purifies

 

strengthens

 

wrongs

 

sufferings

 

undergoing


account
 

devotion

 

reward

 

object

 
soothe
 

rendered

 

repulsive

 

bitterest

 

remained

 
regrets