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ought that man is sent into the world to do a certain work, and that while he is useful for that work he is not likely to be sent away from it. This was, perhaps, only an effect of temperament, although he found himself often trying to palm it off on himself as philosophy. So he was not troubling himself much about the doubtful nature of the telegram. Hamilton would come and explain it, and if Hamilton did not come there would be some other explanation. He began to think about quite other things--he found himself thinking of the bright eyes and the friendly, frank, caressing ways of Helena Langley. The Dictator began somehow to realise the fact that he had hitherto been leading a very lonely life. He was seldom alone--had seldom been alone for many years; but he began to understand the difference between not being alone and being lonely. During all his working career his life had wanted that companionship which alone is companionship to a man of sensitive nature. He had been too busy in his time in Gloria to think about all this. The days had gone by him with a rush. Each day brought its own sudden and vivid interest. Each day had its own decisions to be formed, its own plans to be made, its own difficulties to be encountered, its own struggles to be fought out. Ericson had delighted in it all, as a splendid exhilarating game. But now, in his enforced retirement and comparative restlessness, he looked back upon it and thought how lonely it all was. When each day closed he had no one to whom he could tell all his thoughts about what the day had done or what the next day was likely to bring forth. Someone has written about the 'passion of solitude'--not meaning the passion _for_ solitude, the passion of the saint and the philosopher and the anchorite to be alone and to commune with outer nature or one's inner thought--no, no, but the passion _of_ solitude--the raging passion born of solitude which craves and cries out in agony for the remedy of companionship--of some sweet and loved and trusted companionship--like the fond and futile longing of the childless mother for a child. Eleven! The strokes of the hour rang out from Big Ben in the Clock Tower of Westminster Palace--the Parliament House of which Ericson, in his collegiate days, had once made it his ambition to be a member. The sound of the strokes recalled his mind for the moment to those early days, when the ambition for a seat in Parliament had been the very
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