you will find it even
easy to compound your quarrel with your conscience, and to make a
truckling peace with God. I came but now from such a deathbed, and the
room was full of sincere mourners, listening to the man's last words: and
when I looked into that face, which had been set as a flint against
mercy, I found it smiling with hope.'
'And do you, then, suppose me such a creature?' asked Markheim. 'Do you
think I have no more generous aspirations than to sin, and sin, and sin,
and, at the last, sneak into heaven? My heart rises at the thought. Is
this, then, your experience of mankind? or is it because you find me with
red hands that you presume such baseness? and is this crime of murder
indeed so impious as to dry up the very springs of good?'
'Murder is to me no special category,' replied the other. 'All sins are
murder, even as all life is war. I behold your race, like starving
mariners on a raft, plucking crusts out of the hands of famine and
feeding on each other's lives. I follow sins beyond the moment of their
acting; I find in all that the last consequence is death; and to my eyes,
the pretty maid who thwarts her mother with such taking graces on a
question of a ball, drips no less visibly with human gore than such a
murderer as yourself. Do I say that I follow sins? I follow virtues
also; they differ not by the thickness of a nail, they are both scythes
for the reaping angel of Death. Evil, for which I live, consists not in
action but in character. The bad man is dear to me; not the bad act,
whose fruits, if we could follow them far enough down the hurtling
cataract of the ages, might yet be found more blessed than those of the
rarest virtues. And it is not because you have killed a dealer, but
because you are Markheim, that I offer to forward your escape.'
'I will lay my heart open to you,' answered Markheim. 'This crime on
which you find me is my last. On my way to it I have learned many
lessons; itself is a lesson, a momentous lesson. Hitherto I have been
driven with revolt to what I would not; I was a bond-slave to poverty,
driven and scourged. There are robust virtues that can stand in these
temptations; mine was not so: I had a thirst of pleasure. But to-day,
and out of this deed, I pluck both warning and riches--both the power and
a fresh resolve to be myself. I become in all things a free actor in the
world; I begin to see myself all changed, these hands the agents of good,
this
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