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ness in his blood had driven him whither it listed. There had been no depths to which he had not sunk, no wild living from which he had recoiled. And then had come the news of June's death. Not tenderly conveyed, but charged to his account by her sister with a fierce bitterness that had suddenly torn the veil from his eyes. Followed days and nights of agonised remorse, and after that the slow, steady, infinitely difficult climb back from the depths into which he had allowed himself to sink to a plane of life where, had June still lived, he would not have been ashamed to meet her eyes nor utterly unworthy to take her hand. "It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do," he ended. "But she would have wished it. I can never tell her now how I regret, never ask her forgiveness. And this was the only thing I could do to atone." Gillian's eyes were very soft as she answered: "I expect she knows, Dan, and is glad." After a moment she went on thoughtfully. "It's rather the same kind of feeling that has driven Magda into a sisterhood, I think--the desire to do something definite, something tangible, as a sort of reparation. And a woman is much more limited that way than a man." Storran's mouth hardened. Any mention of Magda would bring that look of concentrated hardness into his face, and as the months went on, giving Gillian a closer insight into the man, she began to realise that he had never forgiven Magda for her share in the ruin of his life. On this point he was as hard as nether millstone. He even seemed to derive a certain satisfaction from the knowledge that she was paying, and paying heavily, for all the harm she had wrought. It troubled Gillian--this incalculable hardness in Dan's nature towards one woman. She found him kindly and tolerant in his outlook on life--with the understanding tolerance of the man who has dragged himself out of the pit by his own sheer force of will, and who, knowing the power of temptation, is ready to give a helping hand to others who may have fallen by the way. So that his relentlessness towards Magda was the more inexplicable. More than once she tried to soften his attitude, tried to make him realise something of the conflicting influences both of temperament and environment which had helped to make Magda what she was. But he remained stubbornly unmoved. "No punishment is too severe for a woman who has done what Magda Vallincourt has done. She has wrecked lives simpl
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