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l solicitude. "Ah! here is one of the curious things I promised myself to see in Paris. We, in Spain, do not believe in atheists. There is no country but France where one can have such opinions at nineteen years." "Oh! I am an atheist in the fullest sense of the word. I have no belief in God, in society, in happiness. Take a good look at me, father; for in a few hours' time life will be over for me. My last sun has risen," said Lucien; with a sort of rhetorical effect he waved his hand towards the sky. "How so; what have you done that you must die? Who has condemned you to die?" "A tribunal from which there is no appeal--I myself." "You, child!" cried the priest. "Have you killed a man? Is the scaffold waiting for you? Let us reason together a little. If you are resolved, as you say, to return to nothingness, everything on earth is indifferent to you, is it not?" Lucien bowed assent. "Very well, then; can you not tell me about your troubles? Some little affair of the heart has taken a bad turn, no doubt?" Lucien shrugged his shoulders very significantly. "Are you resolved to kill yourself to escape dishonor, or do you despair of life? Very good. You can kill yourself at Poitiers quite as easily as at Angouleme, and at Tours it will be no harder than at Poitiers. The quicksands of the Loire never give up their prey----" "No, father," said Lucien; "I have settled it all. Not three weeks ago I chanced upon the most charming raft that can ferry a man sick and tired of this life into the other world----" "The other world? You are not an atheist." "Oh! by another world I mean my next transformation, animal or plant." "Have you some incurable disease?" "Yes, father." "Ah! now we come to the point. What is it?" "Poverty." The priest looked at Lucien. "The diamond does not know its own value," he said, and there was an inexpressible charm, and a touch of something like irony in his smile. "None but a priest could flatter a poor man about to die," exclaimed Lucien. "You are not going to die," the Spaniard returned authoritatively. "I have heard many times of men that were robbed on the highroad, but I have never yet heard of one that found a fortune there," said Lucien. "You will hear of one now," said the priest, glancing towards the carriage to measure the time still left for their walk together. "Listen to me," he continued, with his cigar between his teeth; "if you are poor, that
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