as the
struggle which then took place between his human will and his
repugnance to suffer so much for such an ungrateful race, that from
every pore of his sacred body there burst forth large drops of blood,
which fell trickling on to the ground. In his bitter agony, he looked
around, as though seeking help, and appeared to take Heaven, earth, and
the stars of the firmament to witness of his sufferings.

Jesus, in his anguish of spirit, raised his voice, and gave
utterance to several cries of pain. The three Apostles awoke, listened,
and were desirous of approaching him, but Peter detained James and
John, saying: 'Stay you here; I will join him.' Then I saw Peter hastily
run forward and enter the grotto. 'Master,' he exclaimed, 'what has befallen
thee?' But at the sight of Jesus, thus bathed in his own blood, and
sinking to the ground beneath the weight of mortal fear and anguish, he
drew back, and paused for a moment, overcome with terror. Jesus made
him no answer, and appeared unconscious of his presence. Peter returned
to the other two, and told them that the Lord had not answered him
except by groans and sighs. They became more and more sorrowful after
this, covered their heads, and sat down to weep and pray.

I then returned to my Heavenly Spouse in his most bitter agony. The
frightful visions of the future ingratitude of the men whose debt to
Divine Justice he was taking upon himself, continued to become more and
more vivid and tremendous. Several times I heard him exclaim: 'O my
Father, can I possibly suffer for so ungrateful a race? O my Father, if
this chalice may not pass from me, but I must drink it, thy will be
done!'

Amid all these apparitions, Satan held a conspicuous place, under
various forms, which represented different species of sins. Sometimes
he appeared under the form of a gigantic black figure, sometimes under
those of a tiger, a fox, a wolf, a dragon, or a serpent. Not, however,
that he really took any of these shapes, but merely some one of their
characteristics, joined with other hideous forms. None of these
frightful apparitions entirely resembled any creature, but were symbols
of abomination, discord, contradiction, and sin--in one word, were
demoniacal to the fullest extent. These diabolical figures urged on,
dragged, and tore to pieces, before the very eyes of Jesus, countless
numbers of those men for whose redemption he was entering upon the
painful way of the Cross. At first I but seld