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can fathom it, implies intense depression. After all, we must say he met much coldness here. The people did not visit him, there was no courtesy, no kindliness shown him; and though he seemed indifferent to it, who knows how he may have felt it?" "I do not suspect he gave any encouragement to intimacy; beseemed to me as if declining acquaintance with the neighborhood." "Ay, but it was in resentment, I opine; but _you_ ought to know best. You were constantly here?" "Yes, very frequently; but I am not an observant person; all the little details which convey a whole narrative to others are utterly lost upon _me_." The doctor smiled. It was an expression that appeared to say he concurred in the curate's version of his own nature. "It is these small gifts of combining, arranging, sifting, and testing, that we doctors have to cultivate," said he, as he took his hat. "The patient the most eager to be exact and truthful will, in spite of himself, mislead and misguide us. There is a strange bend sinister in human nature, against sincerity, that will indulge itself even at the cost of life itself. You are the physician of the soul, sir; but take my word for it, you might get many a shrewd hint and many a useful suggestion from us, the meaner workmen who only deal with nerves and arteries." As he wended his solitary road homewards, L'Estrange pondered thoughtfully over the doctor's words. He had no need, he well knew, to be reminded of his ignorance of mankind; but here was a new view of it, and it seemed immeasurable. On the whole he was a sadder man than usual on that day. The world around him--that narrow circle whose diameter was perhaps a dozen miles or so--was very sombre in its coloring. He had left sickness and sorrow in a house where he had hitherto only seen festivity and pleasure; and worse again, as regarded himself, he had carried away none of those kindlier sympathies and friendly feelings which were wont to greet him at the great house. Were they really then changed to him? and if so, why so? There is a moral chill in the sense of estrangement from those we have lived with on terms of friendship that, like the shudder that precedes ague, seems to threaten that worse will follow. Julia would see where the mischief lay had she been in his place. Julia would have read the mystery, if there were a mystery, from end to end; but _he_, he felt it,--he had no powers of observation, no quickness, no tact. He
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