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new. She wished he would look at her. "When we were married," he went on, "I had a dream that a man's wife stood for his ideals, that he might mold his life by her purity and nobleness and love. I've always been saying, in effect, 'Lead on, Mrs. Percival and I will follow where you lead!' You've led me into the depths, Lena, and I'm never going to say that to you any more. You and I have got to remold our relations and start again." "What has happened?" Lena asked faintly, and feeling very helpless. She seemed suddenly to realize how very big Dick's body was, and how little chance she stood against it. If he was inaccessible in spirit she had no hold over him. She wished he would get angry. That would be something concrete. She would know how to meet it. "What has happened?" she repeated. "Only this," Dick said. "I am going to refuse to delude myself any longer; and it is fair to you as it is to me that you should know it. I am going to stop telling myself that you are my ideal woman, when you have shown me, for instance, your unwillingness to make such tender self-sacrifice as a mother must give to a child--that you are true and honest when you are guilty of an underhand thrust like that little squib about Madeline--that--" "Ah," shrieked Lena, leaping to her feet with the light beginning to come into her eyes. "So that's what's the matter! That girl--" "No," said Dick evenly, "that is not what cuts most. What hurts through and through, Lena, is the knowledge that you don't even love me enough, in spite of all my wasted passion, to keep from intriguing with another man behind my back for the sake of a few bits of red glass." "How--did Mr. Early--?" Lena began, but he interrupted her again. "Did it seem such a simple thing to keep me perpetually blinded? Last night, Lena, I paid your debt to Mr. Early. I sold my vote in the council, along with my self-respect and my honor in the sight of others to get back this shred of paper. Once I might have thought you sinned ignorantly, but I know you better now. Here is that priceless scrap." He drew it from his pocket and threw it into her lap. "Now I've swept away all the mists! There can't be any sweet illusions between you and me, Lena." He drew a sharp breath. Lena's heart was beating very fast and her eyes were down. She saw shrewdly that there was no need of argument on any of these topics. The less she said about them the better for her. And Dick, with h
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