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sing and falling upon her breast; sweeping away cities and nursing to life violets; tearing down and building up; killing and begetting; bringing laughter and tears, it is consistent in one thing alone,--that it never ceases. There is but one word big enough to express it, and that is God. Without beginning, without end, and never ceasing. At times he grew breathless, so individualized did every second become, so fraught with haste. Where was he being dragged, and in the end would the seconds rest? No, they would go on just the same, and he might hear them even in his grave. With his decision came the even more vital question as to what he should tell this girl. With the strength of his whole nature he craved the privilege of standing white before her. He longed to tell her the whole pitiful complication that he might stand before her without shadow of hypocrisy. He could then leave with his head up to meet his doom. But even this crumb of relief was refused him. To do this might break down the boy and would leave her, if only as a friend, to bear something of the ensuing hours. He must, then, leave her in darkness, suffering the lesser stings of doubt and suspicion and bewilderment. He must leave her in false colors to whatever she might imagine. She came back again with her lips quivering. "Poor Marie," she gasped. "She lies there broken hearted, praying to die." "I am sorry for her," he said gently. "I feel the blame of it," she answered. "Why must the curse of the house have fallen upon her?" "It is difficult to work out such matters," he replied. "But I don't think you should shoulder the responsibility. We each of us must bear the burden of our own acts. It makes it even harder when another tries to relieve us of this." "But I can't relieve her. That is the pity of it. She turns away her head from me for she has taken upon herself all the responsibility for Jacques." "That is the mother in her. There is nothing you can do." "She will die of grief." "Then she will be dead. So her relief will come." The girl drew back a little. "She must not die. I must not let her die." She looked up at him as though she expected him even in this emergency to suggest some way out of it. But he was speechless. "I must go back to her," she said after a minute. "I must go and comfort her." "Yes," he said, "that is the best you can do. Take her hand and hold it. That is all yo
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