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ehind; I should like to show it you--to see what you make of it." He rose and from his bureau extracted a note; then he resumed his seat and tossed me the almost illegible scrawl:-- DEAR LIONEL,--All this time I have been too blessed--too supremely happy to face the truth. You do not know my real name nor my grievous history, and the more I love and honour you the harder becomes the revelation. I can endure it no more--so good-bye. "And was that all?" "Absolutely. I pressed the pansy in the poem, and vowed--such vows are cheap--never to trust a woman again. But, after all, what claim have we to view our love as a priceless gift when we invariably demand cent. per cent. in kind? I have argued this out with myself, and realise that I was her debtor, I was first an artist whom she had patronised and then--a man whom she had----" "Well?" "I was going to say--ennobled. Don't you think there are some women who, by power of faith, transmute even clay-footed idols into gold?" I shook my head and prepared to turn over the leaf, but he made as though to remove the book. "That last one is a marguerite. It tells a very bald narrative--just a common instance of man's blockheadedness and Fate's topsy-turvydom." Bentham threw aside his cigarette and closed his eyes. He was looking worn and old. "I think I have told you all," he continued presently, "except about these petals. They were gathered from the ground as her fingers shredded them to discover whether I loved her _passionement_ or _pas du tout."_ "The same person?" "No, another; she was what is called a coquette--an innocent girl baby, who played with men's hearts as children probe sawdust dolls--from a spirit of inquiry. For some silly wager she flirted with a man staying in the hotel, an uncouth provincial clown whom I ignored. But it maddened me. I started for the States to accept a commission that had been offered--that my love for her had held in the balance--and--and I never saw her alive again." There was a long pause, during which the clock on the chimney ticked its forever--never--without remorse. Gradually the synopsis became more complete, for I could trace the outlines of the buried hours in Bentham's grey, impassive face. Then he went on as though soliloquising:-- "Now I return to it, England seems wider--its population smaller. It is as if we lived in a great silence like that in the rarified atmosphere of Swis
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