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ing would never be. I guess I gasped a little at this. Anyhow, I know I tried to break in and tell her that we _were_ going to separate, and that that was exactly what I had come into the room in the first place to say. But again she kept right on talking, and I was silenced before I had even begun. She said how she knew it could never be--on account of Eunice. That I would never subject my little girl to the sort of wretchedly divided life that I had had to live when I was a child. (As she spoke I was suddenly back in the cobwebby attic with little Mary Marie's diary, and I thought--what if it _were_ Eunice--writing that!) She said I was the most devoted mother she had ever known; that I was _too_ devoted, she feared sometimes, for I made Eunice _all_ my world, to the exclusion of Jerry and everything and everybody else. But that she was very sure, because I _was_ so devoted, and loved Eunice so dearly, that I would never deprive her of a father's love and care. I shivered a little, and looked quickly into Mother's face. But she was not looking at me. I was thinking of how Jerry had kissed and kissed Eunice a month ago, when we came away, as if he just couldn't let her go. Jerry _is_ fond of Eunice, now that she's old enough to know something, and Eunice adores her father. I knew that part was going to be hard. And now to have Mother put it like that-- I began to talk then of Jerry. I just felt that I'd got to say something. That Mother must listen. That she didn't understand. I told her how Jerry loved lights and music and dancing, and crowds bowing down and worshiping him all the time. And she said yes, she remembered; that _he'd been that way when I married him_. She spoke so sort of queerly that again I glanced at her; but she still was looking down at the hem she was turning. I went on then to explain that _I_ didn't like such things; that _I_ believed that there were deeper and higher things, and things more worth while. And she said yes, she was glad, and that that was going to be my saving grace; for, of course, I realized that there couldn't be anything deeper or higher or more worth while than keeping the home together, and putting up with annoyances, for the ultimate good of all, especially of Eunice. She went right on then quickly, before I could say anything. She said that, of course, I understood that I was still Mary and Marie, even if Jerry did call me Mollie; and that if Marie had
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