egardless
of criticism, and actually quivering with sympathy. Her more important
dinner parties might have been likened to ill-matched fours-in-hand, and
Holder had sometimes felt more of pity than of amusement as she sat with
an expression of terror on her face, helplessly watching certain
unruly individuals taking their bits in their teeth and galloping madly
downhill. On one occasion, when he sat beside her, a young man, who
shall be nameless, was suddenly heard to remark in the midst of an
accidental lull:
"I never go to church. What's the use? I'm afraid most of us don't
believe in hell any more."
A silence followed: of the sort that chills. And the young man, glancing
down the long board at the clergyman, became as red as the carnation in
his buttonhole, and in his extremity gulped down more champagne.
"Things are in a dreadful state nowadays!" Mrs. Ferguson gasped to
a paralyzed company, and turned an agonized face to Holder. "I'm so
sorry," she said, "I don't know why I asked him to-night, except that I
have to have a young man for Nan, and he's just come to the city, and
I was sorry for him. He's very promising in a business way; he's in Mr.
Plimpton's trust company."
"Please don't let it trouble you." Holder turned and smiled a little,
and added whimsically: "We may as well face the truth."
"Oh, I should expect you to be good about it, but it was unpardonable,"
she cried....
In the intervals when he gained her attention he strove, by talking
lightly of other things, to take her mind off the incident, but
somehow it had left him strangely and--he felt--disproportionately
depressed,--although he had believed himself capable of facing more or
less philosophically that condition which the speaker had so frankly
expressed. Yet the remark, somehow, had had an illuminating effect like
a flashlight, revealing to him the isolation of the Church as never
before. And after dinner, as they were going to the smoking-room, the
offender accosted him shamefacedly.
"I'm awfully sorry, Mr. Holder," he stammered.
That the tall rector's regard was kindly did not relieve his discomfort.
Hodder laid a hand on his shoulder.
"Don't worry about it," he answered, "I have only one regret as to what
you said--that it is true."
The other looked at him curiously.
"It's mighty decent of you to take it this way," he laid. Further speech
failed him.
He was a nice-looking young man, with firm white teeth, and honest
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