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or I shall ask Ruth." "Well," he said, but this time without rancour, merely telling her what she had asked, "you see a house, even a hen-run like ours, always costs ever so much more than rooms--rates and things like servants, don't you see--and then Ruth used to make a bit with curious bazaar stuff all gummed on to tins." It was a mere backwash of his thought, as he drew the question out to a solution--nothing more. He never thought of a comparison. Why, if the thing had ever come to that, Helena had her allowance.... But it went home to her, whose early days had bred a diffidence to die only with the years. Ruth had helped him, then! "I wish _I_ could do something," she said. "I feel so useless!" She had forgotten her bold attack with which this dialogue had started, and her whole mind was filled now with its self-reproach. Hubert felt a sudden shame. The words threw back his memory to those first hours in London when the vast City crowd had made her say; "It makes me feel so useless!" Dear little girl, what happy, jolly days she had brought to his life since then! And yet she thought that she was useless.... She seemed so upset. His one idea was consolation. She must not think he longed for Ruth again, in even one respect! Perhaps at a less flustered time he might have thought of all that she did in the house; those charming little meals, hot always at however variable times; the pretty bowls of flowers; everything so dainty--green and white--so different from the grimy lodgings. But now he did not think of that. He took her arm instinctively in his and spoke what came into his mind. "Dear little girlie," he said kindly, "I love you to be useless." But she was not consoled. CHAPTER VIII A SCENE IN THE HOME Hubert Brett could never quite escape from business; he analysed himself too much. His action sprung from impulse, education, ancestry, whatever source philosophers may choose to say, but it was followed by a sequel due to his own introspection. He tended in this way to set up something like a chain--a sequence of states which might almost be expected after any given act. He might have owned, found in a candid vein, that selfishness was his besetting fault. It had been so--this would be his excuse, if he indeed admitted what certainly he knew--it had been so from birth; at any rate since he recalled himself an only son and younger than his only sister, pampered a
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