ust result in every variety of damnation. At
the moment, however, I was greatly surprised and gratified and
tried at once to repeat the delightful sensation, but was unable
to do so until the following day. From that time to the present I
think I have masturbated an average of ten times per week, and
this is certainly a very conservative estimate; for though up to
my sixteenth year I could seldom produce an orgasm more than once
a day I have often, during the last four or five years, produced
it from four to seven times per day without difficulty and this
for days and even weeks in succession. During these periods of
excessive masturbation very little liquid was ejaculated and the
pleasurable sensations were slight or entirely lacking.

From the time when I began masturbating regularly practically my
whole interest centered in things pertaining to sex. I read the
chapters of the family "doctor book" which treated of sexual
matters; my day-dreams were almost exclusively erotic; I sought
opportunities to talk about sex-relationships with my
schoolmates, with whom I was now slowly getting on better terms;
I collected pictures of nude women, learned a great number of
obscene stories, read such obscene books as I could obtain and
even searched the dictionary for words having a sexual
connotation. Up to my fifteenth year, when ejaculation of semen
began, there was a strong sadistic coloring to my day-dreams.
Through this period, too, my bashfulness in the presence of the
opposite sex increased until it reached the point of absurdity.

When fifteen years old I began to practice coitus inter femora on
my brother and continued it intermittently for about two years.
The experience was disappointing, for I had confidently expected
a great increase of pleasure over masturbation in this act; and
in casting about for some stronger stimulus I recurred to the
forgotten idea of intercourse with animals. I promptly tried to
put the idea to a test, but failed several times, and finally
succeeded, only to find that the result fell far short of my
expectations. Nevertheless I continued the practice irregularly
for about three years--or rather through that part of the three
years that I spent at home, for while I was at school opportunity
for such indulgence was lacking. Long familiarity with the id