FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   4670   4671   4672   4673   4674   4675   4676   4677   4678   4679   4680   4681   4682   4683   4684   4685   4686   4687   4688   4689   4690   4691   4692   4693   4694  
4695   4696   4697   4698   4699   4700   4701   4702   4703   4704   4705   4706   4707   4708   4709   4710   4711   4712   4713   4714   4715   4716   4717   4718   4719   >>   >|  
eturned to the same thought, "Lost! lost!--too late! too late!" Barbara gave herself up to this mood for several minutes, but at last she remembered her lover's summons for that evening. He longed to hear her voice, Master Adrian had said. Surely, surely he himself had clothed the expression in a totally different, a hundred times warmer form. How bewitchingly he, the great Emperor, understood how to flatter, and, with the memory of the charm of his manner, the thought of the blissful hours which she had enjoyed through his love returned to her mind. It was in his power to bestow the highest happiness which earth can give; after all, his love outweighed everything that she must sacrifice for it. To enjoy it, though but for a brief season, she ought not to refuse to bear the hardest, most terrible things, and, if what was now her secret became rumoured among the people, to accept humiliation, shame, and scorn. Let the respectable women of Ratisbon, in their pride of virtue, maliciously cast stones at her; they could not look down upon her, for, as the object of the most illustrious sovereign's love, she was raised far above them. Meanwhile, with a feeling of defiant self-confidence, she was again braiding her hair. But the mental firmness which she had regained did not last; more than once her hand faltered while the comb was dividing the wealth of her golden tresses. How ardently Charles had praised their luxuriant beauty!-and to-day he was to rejoice in it again. But why had not even one poor word from his own hand accompanied the summons? Why had his messenger been only a valet? Why had he wounded her so deeply the night before? Why did leaden weights seem to hang upon her soul when she attempted to soar upward? Oh, what a state of things! Who had given the regent, to whom nothing attracted her, the right to dispose of her as though she were a chattel or her captive? Had she, with her heart and her honour, also resigned her freedom to her lover? If she had only possessed one, one single person to whom she could utter her thoughts! Then her glance fell upon the knapsack, and she remembered Wolf. He was to set out on his journey early the next morning; her lover expected her after vespers; so perhaps she would not be permitted to see him again, for she scarcely dared to hope that, after the rebuff which he had experienced, he would seek her again. Yet she longed once more to clasp the hand of th
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   4670   4671   4672   4673   4674   4675   4676   4677   4678   4679   4680   4681   4682   4683   4684   4685   4686   4687   4688   4689   4690   4691   4692   4693   4694  
4695   4696   4697   4698   4699   4700   4701   4702   4703   4704   4705   4706   4707   4708   4709   4710   4711   4712   4713   4714   4715   4716   4717   4718   4719   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

thought

 

things

 

remembered

 

summons

 

longed

 
deeply
 

wounded

 

firmness

 

dividing

 
leaden

weights

 
messenger
 

rejoice

 

faltered

 

beauty

 

luxuriant

 
ardently
 

praised

 
tresses
 

wealth


accompanied

 

regained

 

Charles

 

golden

 

journey

 

morning

 

vespers

 

expected

 

glance

 

knapsack


experienced

 

rebuff

 
permitted
 

scarcely

 

thoughts

 

attracted

 

dispose

 
regent
 

upward

 
chattel

mental

 
possessed
 
single
 

person

 
freedom
 

resigned

 

captive

 

honour

 

attempted

 
stones