FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   25   26   27   28   29   30   31   32   33   34   35   36   37   38   39   40   41   42   43   44   45   46   47   48   49  
50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   >>   >|  
oment that she knew his lie and Gaspare's. "Yes," he said. "I do think so." "Well, that lie of mine--it was defied. And it had no more courage." "I want you to tell me something," he said, quietly. "I want you to tell me what has happened to-day." "To-day?" "Yes. Something has happened either to-day or very recently--I am sure of it--that has stirred up within you this feeling of acute dissatisfaction. It was always there. But something has called it into the open. What has done that?" Hermione hesitated. "Perhaps you don't know," he said. "I was wondering--yes, I do know. I must be truthful with myself--with you. I do know. But it seems so strange, so almost inexplicable, and even rather absurd." "Truth often seems absurd." "It was that boy, that diver for _frutti di mare_--Ruffo." "The boy with the Arab eyes?" "Yes. Of course I have seen many boys full of life and gayety and music. There are so many in Italy. But--well, I don't know--perhaps it was partly Vere." "How do you mean?" "Vere was so interested in him. It may have been that. Or perhaps it was something in his look and in his voice when he was singing. I don't really know what it was. But that boy made me feel--more horribly than I have ever felt before--that Vere is not enough. Emile, there is some hunger, so persistent, so peculiar, so intense, that one feels as if it must be satisfied eventually, as if it were impossible for it not to be satisfied. I think that human hunger for immortal life is like that, and I think my hunger for a son is like that. I know my hunger can never be satisfied. And yet it lives on in me just as if it knew more than I know, as if it knew that it could and must. After all these years I can't, no, I can't reconcile myself to the fact that Maurice was taken from me so utterly, that he died without stamping himself upon a son. It seems as if it couldn't be. And I feel to-day that I cannot bear that it is." There were tears standing in her eyes. She had spoken with a force of feeling, with a depth of sincerity, that startled Artois, intimately as he knew her. Till this moment he had not quite realized the wonderful persistence of love in the hearts of certain women, and not only the persistence of love's existence, but of its existence undiminished, unabated by time. "How am I to bear it?" she said, as he did not speak. "I cannot tell. I am not worthy to know. And besides, I must say to you,
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   25   26   27   28   29   30   31   32   33   34   35   36   37   38   39   40   41   42   43   44   45   46   47   48   49  
50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

hunger

 

satisfied

 

persistence

 

existence

 

absurd

 

feeling

 

happened

 

Maurice

 

reconcile

 

utterly


stamping
 

defied

 

impossible

 
courage
 

quietly

 

eventually

 

immortal

 

hearts

 
undiminished
 

unabated


worthy

 

wonderful

 
realized
 

spoken

 

Gaspare

 
standing
 

sincerity

 

moment

 

intimately

 

startled


Artois
 

couldn

 
intense
 
frutti
 

dissatisfaction

 

gayety

 

truthful

 

Hermione

 

hesitated

 

wondering


called
 

inexplicable

 

strange

 

horribly

 
recently
 

persistent

 

peculiar

 

Perhaps

 

Something

 
singing