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which he must travel whether he will or not,--a road bare and dusty and companionless, devoid of shade, or rest, or joy, or that love that could transform the barrenness into a "flowery mead." "He that loses hope"--says Congreve--"may part with anything." To Scrope, just now, it seems as though hope and he have parted company forever. The past has been so dear, with all its vague beliefs and uncertain dreamings,--all too sweet for realization,--that the present appears unbearable. The very air seems dark, the sky leaden, the clouds sad and lowering. Vainly he tries to understand how he has come to love, with such a boundless passion, this girl, who loves him not at all, but has surrendered herself wholly to one unworthy of her,--one utterly incapable of comprehending the nobility and truthfulness of her nature. The world, that only yesterday seemed so desirable a place, to-day has lost its charm. "What is life, when stripped of its disguise? A thing to be desired it cannot be." With him it seems almost at an end. An unsatisfactory thing, too, at its best,--a mere "glimpse into the world of might have been." Some words read a week ago come to him now, and ring their changes on his brain. "Rien ne va plus,"--the hateful words return to him with a pertinacity not to be subdued. It is with difficulty he refrains from uttering them aloud. "No; he does not disapprove," says Clarissa, interrupting his reflections at this moment: "he has given his full consent to my engagement." She speaks somewhat slowly, as if remembrance weighs upon her. "And, even if he had not, there is still something that must give me happiness: it is the certainty that Horace loves me, and that I love him." Though unmeant, this is a cruel blow. Sir James turns away, and, paling visibly,--had she cared to see it,--plucks a tiny piece of bark from the old tree against which he is leaning. There is something in his face that, though she understands it not, moves Clarissa to pity. "You will wish me some good wish, after all, Jim, won't you?" she says, very sweetly, almost pathetically. "No, I cannot," returns he with a brusquerie foreign to him. "To do so would be actual hypocrisy." There is silence for a moment: Clarissa grows a little pale, in her turn. In _his_ turn, he takes no notice of her emotion, having his face averted. Then, in a low, faint, choked voice, she breaks the silence. "If I had been wise," she says, "I sh
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