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etimes, at the last moment, his escape to Agatha would prove impossible; so they had left it further that he was to send her no forewarning; he was to come when and as he could. He could always get a room in the village inn or at the Farm near by, and in Agatha's house he would find his place ready for him, the place which had become his refuge, his place of peace. There was no need to prepare her. She was never not prepared. It was as if by her preparedness, by the absence of preliminaries, of adjustments and arrangements, he was always there, lodged in the innermost chamber. She had set herself apart; she had swept herself bare and scoured herself clean for him. Clean she had to be; clean from the desire that he should come; clean, above all, from the thought, the knowledge she now had, that she could make him come. For if she had given herself up to _that_---- But she never had; never since the knowledge came to her; since she discovered, wonderfully, by a divine accident, that at any moment she could make him--that she had whatever it was, the power, the uncanny, unaccountable Gift. She was beginning to see more and more how it worked; how inevitably, how infallibly it worked. She was even a little afraid of it, of what it might come to mean. It _did_ mean that without his knowledge, separated as they were and had to be, she could always get at him. And supposing it came to mean that she could get at him to make him do things? Why, the bare idea of it was horrible. Nothing could well have been _more_ horrible to Agatha. It was the secret and the essence of their remarkable relation that she had never tried to get at him; whereas Bella _had_, calamitously; and still more calamitously, because of the peculiar magic that there was (there must have been) in her, Bella had succeeded. To have tried to get at him would have been, for Agatha, the last treachery, the last indecency; while for Rodney it would have been the destruction of her charm. She was the way of escape for him from Bella; but she had always left her door, even the innermost door, wide open; so that where shelter and protection faced him there faced him also the way of departure, the way of escape from _her_. And if her thought could get at him and fasten on him and shut him in there---- It could, she knew; but it need not. She was really all right. Restraint had been the essence and the secret of the charm she had, and it was also the s
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