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shrieked for help." Densher wondered at this with intensity; and his curiosity compromised for an instant with his discretion. "Come upon her--for money?" "Oh for that of course always. But, at _this_ blessed season, for refuge, for safety: for God knows what. He's _there_, the brute. And Kate's with them. And that," Mrs. Lowder wound up, going down the steps, "is her Christmas." She had stopped again at the bottom while he thought of an answer. "Yours then is after all rather better." "It's at least more decent." And her hand once more came out. "But why do I talk of _our_ troubles? Come if you can." He showed a faint smile. "Thanks. If I can." "And now--I dare say--you'll go to church?" She had asked it, with her good intention, rather in the air and by way of sketching for him, in the line of support, something a little more to the purpose than what she had been giving him. He felt it as finishing off their intensities of expression that he found himself to all appearance receiving her hint as happy. "Why yes--I think I will": after which, as the door of the brougham, at her approach, had opened from within, he was free to turn his back. He heard the door, behind him, sharply close again and the vehicle move off in another direction than his own. He had in fact for the time no direction; in spite of which indeed he was at the end of ten minutes aware of having walked straight to the south. That, he afterwards recognised, was, very sufficiently, because there had formed itself in his mind, even while Aunt Maud finally talked, an instant recognition of his necessary course. Nothing was open to him but to follow Kate, nor was anything more marked than the influence of the step she had taken on the emotion itself that possessed him. Her complications, which had fairly, with everything else, an awful sound--what were they, a thousand times over, but his own? His present business was to see that they didn't escape an hour longer taking their proper place in his life. He accordingly would have held his course hadn't it suddenly come over him that he had just lied to Mrs. Lowder--a term it perversely eased him to keep using--even more than was necessary. To what church was he going, to what church, in such a state of his nerves, _could_ he go?--he pulled up short again, as he had pulled up in sight of Mrs. Lowder's carriage, to ask it. And yet the desire queerly stirred in him not to have wasted his word. H
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