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on life. And whatever way you put it, whatever the future brings, we're better for what happened tonight." Pan strode off in the starlight, across the orchard, down along the murmuring stream to the cottonwood tree with the bench. It was useless for him to try to sleep. To and fro he paced in the starlight. Alone now, with the urgent activities past for the time, he reverted to the grim and hateful introspection that had haunted his mind. This once, however, the sinister strife in his soul, that strange icy clutch on his senses--the aftermath of instinctive horror following the death of a man by his hand--wore away before the mounting of a passion that had only waited. It did not leap upon him unawares, like an enemy out of ambush. It grew as he walked, as his whirling thoughts straightened in a single line to--Lucy. She had betrayed him. She had broken his heart. What if she had thought him dead--sacrificed herself to save her father?--She had given herself to that dog Hardman. The thought was insupportable. "I hate her," he whispered. "She's made me hate her." The hours passed, the stars moved across the heavens, the night wind ceased, the crickets grew silent, and the murmuring stream flowed on at Pan's feet. Spent and beaten he sat upon the bench. His love for Lucy had not been killed. It lived, it had grown, it was tremendous--and both pity and reason clamored that he be above jealousy and hate. After all there was excuse for Lucy. She was young, she had been driven by grief over his supposed death and fear for her father. But oh! The pity of it--of this hard truth against the sweetness and purity of his dream! Life and love were not what he had dreamed them as he had ridden the lonely ranges. He must suffer because he had left Lucy to fight her battles. "I'll try to forget," he whispered huskily. "I've got to. But not yet. I can't do it yet.... We'll leave this country far behind. And some day we can go on with--with all we planned." Pan went back to the barn and threw himself upon the hay, where exhausted brain and body sank to sleep and rest. It seemed that a voice and a rude hand tore away the sweet oblivion. "Pard, are you daid?" came Blinky's voice, keen and full with newer note. "Sunup an' time to rustle. Your dad's heah an' he says breakfast is waitin'." Pan rose and stretched. His muscles ached as though he had been beaten. How bright the sun! Night was
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